Hey! I'm Annoying!
So yes, today was a good day. I worked, it was a little slow, but fun certain times...Amy came to visit us slaves of Martin's and it was my Mom's birthday! Also Amanda Dumonchelle's birthday but that crazy is galavanting around in Florida somewhere...pshh...
I am annoying...nothing new to some of you (grr) at least i think i am sometimes. Why you say? A. I totally say I'm going to forget and ignore relationships and the possibility of relationships this summer...because they never really happen for Jenni o'Faulkner...and there is quite possibly something seriously wrong with me...jk i have no idea. Well, I've BROKEN that "goal" if you will or that "promise" because oh shock, i DO happen to like someone...or so I think...problem is I may have liked him before. got over him...but now like him again...with more intensity...gosh i'm cool. And we flirt a lot. And I worry that he doesn't like me..blah blah, and i wonder if he ever thinks of me...i'm retarded...but what's worse??? I think i've figured out why i think i'm annoying and have never really have had a "relationship".....it's because i'm too sacrcastic?...But i am serious at times...i have a HUGE sense of Humor and I do use sarcasm...thanks dad. But i seem to use sarcasm in flirting along with trying to be cute, and kind and serious and funny and blah blah blah...but i hope by being sarcastic at times....cause i think i'm being witty..I don't know! I NEED HELP! anyone??? I think i'm being quick and witty...buy maybe i'm coming off as annoying...i don't mean too...maybe i'm more sarcastic when i'm nervous or excited or something...and thus I am a loser.
le sigh.
i am seriously a hopeless romantic with one crazy sense of humor and i think it's a compliment when someone calls me weird without thinking i am actually creepy. awww. cute.
on another note...and a relivatory (sp?) one at that- i LOVE hugs... had a fabulous one today with said someone above...who BTW has amazing shoulders..and whom at first i didn't think would give me such a willing hug! I'd like another one sometime!
oh while at Martin's this is the song i've had in my head all day: well, just this part...form "The point of no return" from The Phantom of the Opera-
(CHRISTINE)
You have brought me
to that moment
where words run dry,
to that moment
where speech
disappears
into silence,
silence . . .
I have come here,
hardly knowing
the reason why . . .
In my mind,
I've already
imagined our
bodies entwining
defenceless and silent -
and now I am
here with you:
no second thoughts,
I've decided,
decided . . .
Past the point
of no return -
no going back now:
our passion-play
has now, at last,
begun . . .
Past all thought
of right or wrong -
one final question:
how long should we
two wait, before
we're one . . .?
When will the blood
begin to race
the sleeping bud
burst into bloom?
When will the flames,
at last, consume
us . . .?
PHANTOM AND CHRISTINE
Past the point
of no return
the final threshold -
the bridge
is crossed, so stand
and watch it burn . . .
We've passed the point
of no return . . .
FABULOUS
ok, well..i have a dentist appointment in the morning- and i'm thinking about doing that "write to 10 people not revealing who they are, saying something you've always wanted to say to them but never have had the courage to say" thing...fuunnn..plus i'm being stalked by some weirdo on AIM...no clue who he is...
I am annoying...nothing new to some of you (grr) at least i think i am sometimes. Why you say? A. I totally say I'm going to forget and ignore relationships and the possibility of relationships this summer...because they never really happen for Jenni o'Faulkner...and there is quite possibly something seriously wrong with me...jk i have no idea. Well, I've BROKEN that "goal" if you will or that "promise" because oh shock, i DO happen to like someone...or so I think...problem is I may have liked him before. got over him...but now like him again...with more intensity...gosh i'm cool. And we flirt a lot. And I worry that he doesn't like me..blah blah, and i wonder if he ever thinks of me...i'm retarded...but what's worse??? I think i've figured out why i think i'm annoying and have never really have had a "relationship".....it's because i'm too sacrcastic?...But i am serious at times...i have a HUGE sense of Humor and I do use sarcasm...thanks dad. But i seem to use sarcasm in flirting along with trying to be cute, and kind and serious and funny and blah blah blah...but i hope by being sarcastic at times....cause i think i'm being witty..I don't know! I NEED HELP! anyone??? I think i'm being quick and witty...buy maybe i'm coming off as annoying...i don't mean too...maybe i'm more sarcastic when i'm nervous or excited or something...and thus I am a loser.
le sigh.
i am seriously a hopeless romantic with one crazy sense of humor and i think it's a compliment when someone calls me weird without thinking i am actually creepy. awww. cute.
on another note...and a relivatory (sp?) one at that- i LOVE hugs... had a fabulous one today with said someone above...who BTW has amazing shoulders..and whom at first i didn't think would give me such a willing hug! I'd like another one sometime!
oh while at Martin's this is the song i've had in my head all day: well, just this part...form "The point of no return" from The Phantom of the Opera-
(CHRISTINE)
You have brought me
to that moment
where words run dry,
to that moment
where speech
disappears
into silence,
silence . . .
I have come here,
hardly knowing
the reason why . . .
In my mind,
I've already
imagined our
bodies entwining
defenceless and silent -
and now I am
here with you:
no second thoughts,
I've decided,
decided . . .
Past the point
of no return -
no going back now:
our passion-play
has now, at last,
begun . . .
Past all thought
of right or wrong -
one final question:
how long should we
two wait, before
we're one . . .?
When will the blood
begin to race
the sleeping bud
burst into bloom?
When will the flames,
at last, consume
us . . .?
PHANTOM AND CHRISTINE
Past the point
of no return
the final threshold -
the bridge
is crossed, so stand
and watch it burn . . .
We've passed the point
of no return . . .
FABULOUS
ok, well..i have a dentist appointment in the morning- and i'm thinking about doing that "write to 10 people not revealing who they are, saying something you've always wanted to say to them but never have had the courage to say" thing...fuunnn..plus i'm being stalked by some weirdo on AIM...no clue who he is...