HOLY CRAP! I CAN GET SENSITIVE TOO!
haha my title reminds me of a song.... comment if you want to know which...
so things have been rather odd for me lately... im talking to some old friends again, which is nice because they are really decent people and trustworthy friends...ive been talking to some of my guy friends...which is surprising since i never really thought i had any...
on good friday im hoping that i will be able to go out to the mall with christine, joey, and christines best friend lauren, who i never met. ... things should be interesting....i havent written on lj much... no one seems to either. ... people need to start getting in contact again.. well they dont neeeeed to but it would be nice... i miss having close knit friends...
im starting to find that some people are only friends cause of a certain bond or conection....a common interest...
which is cool an all... but i think i expect too much out of people. i think, sometimes, i only look for a soul mate in people and are kinda disappointed when they dont live up to my expectations, which isnt fair to other people. im a mess. i just wish i had a friend that i can share all my thoughts with (though i have a few friends i can pretty much tell them anything..and many friends of whom i can tell nothing). i say that im not romantic and that i dont really believe in true love but at the same time its something that i want. i dont even know what love is. to me love seems to be conditional, and thats not something i want. but humans... i dont think can love any other way. they say a mother's love is unconditional (or as close as you can get) but what about those mothers that abandon their kids? i have no clue where this is going... i just want someone to hold me....