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You know, I'm not even sure why I feel like I have to explain myself. But I'm NOT BASTARDIZING the value of a life. The fact IN ITSELF that someone DIED NEEDLESSLY made me thoroughly depressed and sick to my stomach. But I know that they really loved each other. I can ONLY IMAGINE how much pain she must be going through right now. But I'm going through some shit right now and these events have allowed me to put MY LIFE into PERSPECTIVE, MINIMIZING MY situation, and I'm not IN ANY WAY EQUALIZING the seriousness of the two events. But finding out about something that was YES, MORE IMPORTANT, MORE SIGNIFICANT, 23894782363-FOLD TIMES MORE SERIOUS than whatever it is I'm going through, helps me rethink my PERSPECTIVE on my own situation.
Not comparable. Not debasing. Taking someone else's loss, sympathizing with them, but simultaneously appreciating everything I have all the more.
But. I'm sorry if he was so much closer to you than he was to me, and I'm sure I can't possibly empathize in nearly the same way. I know you all must be a lot more shaken up than I was (though I was.), and I'm sorry if I offended you in even implying that the two events were comparable. They're not, and I would be the first one to say so if I hadn't already been yelled at. You might not even think that I have the right to speak of the event so soon, and I'm sorry, maybe I didn't. But please don't think that I heard the news and IMMEDIATELY thought of myself. After awhile, really contemplating the loss, thinking about other unnecessary deaths, the transience of life ... I just started to realize how stupid my own shit was. I sincerely apologize for any insensitivity or selfishness I may have conveyed.
Not comparable. Not debasing. Taking someone else's loss, sympathizing with them, but simultaneously appreciating everything I have all the more.
But. I'm sorry if he was so much closer to you than he was to me, and I'm sure I can't possibly empathize in nearly the same way. I know you all must be a lot more shaken up than I was (though I was.), and I'm sorry if I offended you in even implying that the two events were comparable. They're not, and I would be the first one to say so if I hadn't already been yelled at. You might not even think that I have the right to speak of the event so soon, and I'm sorry, maybe I didn't. But please don't think that I heard the news and IMMEDIATELY thought of myself. After awhile, really contemplating the loss, thinking about other unnecessary deaths, the transience of life ... I just started to realize how stupid my own shit was. I sincerely apologize for any insensitivity or selfishness I may have conveyed.