26.
** Disclaimer: This piece of work is probably the most choppy and childish that I’ve written in years. If you’re not up for hearing pure complaints about a very annoying individual, skip this post all together. Thank you loves. **
I’m angry
Popular to the norm in which I only write when I’m deeply saddened by something.
No, no. I’m angry. And whether it’s my place to be or not, that’s my decision.
Anyway, time to lay down the reason as to why I’m angry.
I’ve done a lot of stupid things in my day. I remained in an abusive relationship for years thinking it would get better with time if I just kept putting down effort, and through sacrificing myself and those around me, I figured out that people do have the tendency to be evil, or “bad” as some would put it. And through my experiences I don’t tolerate abusive behavior. Not directed towards me, and not directed towards those who are dear to me.
I honestly can’t stand the fact that Gin allows herself to continue to be trod on by worthless individuals who really aren’t worth the wastes they produce, and that’s a lot coming from me. I don’t like to display any forms of jealousy because I don’t think it’s a good emotion to harbor. It’s negative and only leads to trouble. However, I’m a territorial creature and I don’t believe it’s right for others to hurt what I consider to be mine.
Now.
Let me be a blunt with this entire project, no?
Karley Low.
This would be the person I don’t like.
Gin.
This would be the person that I want to protect.
Let’s start with the waste:
Karley Low appeared in Gin’s life before I ever did. And through that I respect the seniority factor, however she honestly has to be the lowest creature that I’ve ever met. Yes, even lower than Jessica, folks.
I honestly don’t even know where to begin when it comes down to her offenses against humanity. She’s selfish, self centered. She’s an abuser of sorts, she cuts herself and proclaims absolute self loathing yet pride in the fact that she’s “different and a loner”. She whines when her friends don’t pity her and she lashes out when she doesn’t get her way. She’s ungrateful and absolutely insane. This girl couldn’t be more loathed by me. I would much rather have to eat my own, cold vomit than have to ever have to physically meet her in person. She went on rant after rant saying that Gin was an important factor regarding all of her problems when faced with her self esteem. How no one cares about her and how she's be better off dead. How she hated her life. That a relationship that only lasted around two months was the reason as to why she hated herself so much and wanted to kill herself. That she couldn’t’ live without the girl she had only seen maybe three times maximum and only been in a relationship with for 60 days.
She's an attention whore. She cuts for the attention of it. She proclaims attempted suicide for the attention of it. She's an emotional and mental abuser, using the emotions of those close to her, hurting them through putting herself down and doing harm to herself. She always has something wrong with her; she's always upset about something and always wants the help of others to fix it.
As I said, she's a child.
I want this girl to disappear. And I won’t deny it. I would love to never have to hear her name again. And yet Gin persists on believing that there aren’t bad people, and continuing to re-invite this girl into her life. I dropped those who did me harm. I learned my lesson when I was young. Through example, of my own accord and the accords of others, I showed Gin that people may be born good, but have a tendency to become bad. And once bad habits are in place for long periods of time, it's very hard to break them. It's very hard to change a person when they're set in their ways.
This girl is immature. She doesn’t care about anything except herself. Even with the help that I offered her when I absolutely loathed her, she still claims I’ve meant nothing to her but harm, when she can’t even keep her lips shut in terms of attempting to verbally harass me when I’m not around. Or even harass those who I hold dear when they're not around.
I have eyes and ears everywhere, darlings.
I know when things are said about me or about one of those I care about.
Anyway.
I was under the understanding that Gin was done with this girl. That she had seen that there’s no way she could even turn this child into a pre-adolescent. However, I was wrong, and Gin continues on with her trek to be friends.
And whenever I hear the buttons of her phone click away, I become unbelievably annoyed. I know it’s to her, and I know the girl is causing some form of ruckus or another. I don’t want to even hear her messaging the child because it irks me to no end.
I’m tired of watching others hurt those I love, even knowing they chose their fate on their own accord. I'm tired of having to feel the emotional pain of those close to me just because they can't learn their lesson the first few times.. I don’t want this girl around anymore. I don’t like the fact that she touched Gin. It infuriates me. I want to fix it and I want to get over it, but I can’t. I want this girl to go away. And there’s nothing that I can do about it except try to be patient, bite my tongue, and understanding. However with everything that’s already happened, I don’t think I’ll be able to handle it for long.
I'm sure the only reason why I was set off today was because Gin was text messaging her every chance she got while playing games with me today. I find it rude that if you avidly say that you want to spend time with someone, that you end up text messaging or holding other conversations off on the side without truly being involved in the event at hand. I understand excusing yourself to sort some brief things out, but constantly distracting yourself when in the company of another.. I mean.. It's rude. If Gin and I have a video game day sorted out, I don't take the opportunity between fights to pick up my phone and message people. Heck, I don't even read or reply to messages sent to me through Live without excusing myself first.
It's rude. And I've been wanting this time with her for the past three days. And even now I didn't enjoy myself because of my territorial-ism, and the rudeness that Gin showed towards me.
Maybe I'm just being old fashioned.. However I really.. Really didn't appreciate today's events..
Ugh..
However, I swear if anything happens I will make sure to end it for good.
Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me.
A third time isn’t going to happen.
And if it does, then the consequences will probably be too high for anyone to pay.
Anyway.
Now that I have that out in the open -- subjected to future editing and re-writing -- I’ll leave it at that.
Good night, Livejournal.
I’m angry
Popular to the norm in which I only write when I’m deeply saddened by something.
No, no. I’m angry. And whether it’s my place to be or not, that’s my decision.
Anyway, time to lay down the reason as to why I’m angry.
I’ve done a lot of stupid things in my day. I remained in an abusive relationship for years thinking it would get better with time if I just kept putting down effort, and through sacrificing myself and those around me, I figured out that people do have the tendency to be evil, or “bad” as some would put it. And through my experiences I don’t tolerate abusive behavior. Not directed towards me, and not directed towards those who are dear to me.
I honestly can’t stand the fact that Gin allows herself to continue to be trod on by worthless individuals who really aren’t worth the wastes they produce, and that’s a lot coming from me. I don’t like to display any forms of jealousy because I don’t think it’s a good emotion to harbor. It’s negative and only leads to trouble. However, I’m a territorial creature and I don’t believe it’s right for others to hurt what I consider to be mine.
Now.
Let me be a blunt with this entire project, no?
Karley Low.
This would be the person I don’t like.
Gin.
This would be the person that I want to protect.
Let’s start with the waste:
Karley Low appeared in Gin’s life before I ever did. And through that I respect the seniority factor, however she honestly has to be the lowest creature that I’ve ever met. Yes, even lower than Jessica, folks.
I honestly don’t even know where to begin when it comes down to her offenses against humanity. She’s selfish, self centered. She’s an abuser of sorts, she cuts herself and proclaims absolute self loathing yet pride in the fact that she’s “different and a loner”. She whines when her friends don’t pity her and she lashes out when she doesn’t get her way. She’s ungrateful and absolutely insane. This girl couldn’t be more loathed by me. I would much rather have to eat my own, cold vomit than have to ever have to physically meet her in person. She went on rant after rant saying that Gin was an important factor regarding all of her problems when faced with her self esteem. How no one cares about her and how she's be better off dead. How she hated her life. That a relationship that only lasted around two months was the reason as to why she hated herself so much and wanted to kill herself. That she couldn’t’ live without the girl she had only seen maybe three times maximum and only been in a relationship with for 60 days.
She's an attention whore. She cuts for the attention of it. She proclaims attempted suicide for the attention of it. She's an emotional and mental abuser, using the emotions of those close to her, hurting them through putting herself down and doing harm to herself. She always has something wrong with her; she's always upset about something and always wants the help of others to fix it.
As I said, she's a child.
I want this girl to disappear. And I won’t deny it. I would love to never have to hear her name again. And yet Gin persists on believing that there aren’t bad people, and continuing to re-invite this girl into her life. I dropped those who did me harm. I learned my lesson when I was young. Through example, of my own accord and the accords of others, I showed Gin that people may be born good, but have a tendency to become bad. And once bad habits are in place for long periods of time, it's very hard to break them. It's very hard to change a person when they're set in their ways.
This girl is immature. She doesn’t care about anything except herself. Even with the help that I offered her when I absolutely loathed her, she still claims I’ve meant nothing to her but harm, when she can’t even keep her lips shut in terms of attempting to verbally harass me when I’m not around. Or even harass those who I hold dear when they're not around.
I have eyes and ears everywhere, darlings.
I know when things are said about me or about one of those I care about.
Anyway.
I was under the understanding that Gin was done with this girl. That she had seen that there’s no way she could even turn this child into a pre-adolescent. However, I was wrong, and Gin continues on with her trek to be friends.
And whenever I hear the buttons of her phone click away, I become unbelievably annoyed. I know it’s to her, and I know the girl is causing some form of ruckus or another. I don’t want to even hear her messaging the child because it irks me to no end.
I’m tired of watching others hurt those I love, even knowing they chose their fate on their own accord. I'm tired of having to feel the emotional pain of those close to me just because they can't learn their lesson the first few times.. I don’t want this girl around anymore. I don’t like the fact that she touched Gin. It infuriates me. I want to fix it and I want to get over it, but I can’t. I want this girl to go away. And there’s nothing that I can do about it except try to be patient, bite my tongue, and understanding. However with everything that’s already happened, I don’t think I’ll be able to handle it for long.
I'm sure the only reason why I was set off today was because Gin was text messaging her every chance she got while playing games with me today. I find it rude that if you avidly say that you want to spend time with someone, that you end up text messaging or holding other conversations off on the side without truly being involved in the event at hand. I understand excusing yourself to sort some brief things out, but constantly distracting yourself when in the company of another.. I mean.. It's rude. If Gin and I have a video game day sorted out, I don't take the opportunity between fights to pick up my phone and message people. Heck, I don't even read or reply to messages sent to me through Live without excusing myself first.
It's rude. And I've been wanting this time with her for the past three days. And even now I didn't enjoy myself because of my territorial-ism, and the rudeness that Gin showed towards me.
Maybe I'm just being old fashioned.. However I really.. Really didn't appreciate today's events..
Ugh..
However, I swear if anything happens I will make sure to end it for good.
Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me.
A third time isn’t going to happen.
And if it does, then the consequences will probably be too high for anyone to pay.
Anyway.
Now that I have that out in the open -- subjected to future editing and re-writing -- I’ll leave it at that.
Good night, Livejournal.