13 days
my stomach has felt kinda nervous for the past couple of days. the idea that surgery is actually going to happen is starting to sink in. im sure it wont totally hit me until its over, but my stomach seems to be getting the hint that somethings going to happen soon. emotionally i feel very unstable. i dont feel like i can trust anyone. im feeling super excited and awesome one minute and the next i feel depressed and lonely, well i am kind of lonely lately but i havent had time to notice because i just keep thinking about the same couple of things. its like having a song stuck in my head.
tomorrow poppy and i are going south on the 1 because i need to leave the city for a day and my coworker traded shifts with me so poppy has the same day off as me for once. yay for leaving the city. i think thats part of my weird mood lately. whenever im in the city too long i start to feel trapped and want to gasp for fresh air. i need a lot more space than this city provides.
also, katie, i hope you are having fun in turkey and i miss you a lot.
tomorrow poppy and i are going south on the 1 because i need to leave the city for a day and my coworker traded shifts with me so poppy has the same day off as me for once. yay for leaving the city. i think thats part of my weird mood lately. whenever im in the city too long i start to feel trapped and want to gasp for fresh air. i need a lot more space than this city provides.
also, katie, i hope you are having fun in turkey and i miss you a lot.