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Dec 15, 2008 23:00

Dear Diary,
hiii, it's me, Margaret. Sometimes I do dumb things like drink THREE large cups of coffee and not eat all day, except for a bag of M&Ms... Not gonna lie diary.. when you do that... studying becomes a whole new realm of SHIIT SHIT SHIT I DONT GET THIS *sharp look* WAS THAT A BUTTERFLY?!!?!

I don't even think ADHD kids have as much trouble studying as I do right now.

the sad part was, it wasn't even intentional. I just thought back on it and this is how my day went...

7:30 am Wake up.
8 Am actually get up
8:30 am go to doctor
drink hot chocolate at 9ish
Run errands til 11
study study study
vacuum room at 2
eat mms and drink appley juice!
nap... fail.
study study, ADD...
have a really deep conversation for about two hours
library.
coffee
coffee
coffee

head back to room after two hours of sharp head turns to look at things such as but not limited to: dust, my fingernail, a leaf I believed was a butterfly, my desperately trying to study roommate, a chair, books, a computer.

I'm hoping that somehow math will somehow just come to me...
doubtful, but hopeful.

Also: My kitty is dying. Pllllease keep him in your thoughts and hope he gets better. He's amazing. I love my Mr. Mcg a whole bunch.

i'm kind of thinking of making my journal private. I really do just use this for myself so I can look back and be like, was I retarded
or laugh
whatever.

I think the fact that Mcg is ill, Im hyped on caffeine, the sun hasn't been out in days here... and it's a misty cold night during exam week is cuttin down on my happy happy joy joy

I think the one thing I miss the most about GPS, Cyberlan, My close friends... what have you...
are the hugs
those are really some of the best gifts in the world.

Don't take them for granted.


Things I'm not afraid to admit I want to send to post secret one day.

I wish everyone loved hugs. The whole world would be happier, I can guarantee it. I wish I wasn't so afraid to get hugs... since i love them so much.

It wasn't until college that I became grateful I wasn't one of the "pretty" kids. I like the people I make friends with as one of the "smart" kids more. It also wasn't until college that I realized, I am one of the "smart" kids, and I'm proud of it!

I truly love every single human being I interact with. The human race is so damned incredible when you think about it.

Rumi and Hafiz are my secret lovers. I could read them for hours and never get tired of a word they say.

Good conversation is better than any sort of financial security.

When my dads crack addiction put me in foster care completely alone and void of most of my friends and loved ones... I discovered who I was. So for that, I can't really thank him enough.

I love you. (And I'm not ashamed to tell the entire world I hope that we are together forever.)

If I've known you in my life time, than I thank you for influencing who I am.

I have no idea where I am going in life, and I'm extremely excited.

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