Thinking way too much....
Well i've been out of work all week, it left me with alot of time to think. I've been going through some old pictures, saw old faces, some made me want to smash things. Others made me want to smash things even more, because they were dear dear dear to my heart and for some reason or another they are no longer in my life, mostly because i moved away and got married. Ok i'm talking about one person in particular.... I wish i could find him, i talk to friends, they say he is ok, but it's not the same, i want to sit with him, talk with him, be part of his life again, and i just cannot understand why that is not the way that it is right now. I remember taking the train to see him every damn weekend and lying in his bedroom talking for hours upon hours about everything yet nothing all the same. I don't know why i have been thinking about him so must as of late, and i don't know why it matters so much. Maybe because he was the first man i ever loved yet loathed so completly. I just miss him. along with alot of other people but he's the main one, anyone who knows me real well hopefully knows who i am talking about, and danmit it if you know where he is and how i can get a hold of him please do.