Mar 23, 2005 01:24
I'M SEARCHING FOR THE WORDS INSIDE MY HEAD. I'M FEELING NERVOUS, TRYING TO BE SO PERFECT. CAUSE I KNOW YOUR WORTH IT, YOUR WORTH IT YEAH!
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i sat there and looked at his number in my phonebook for atleast an hour. But i could never get the courage to press SEND. my heart was screaming YES! YES! DO IT YOU FOOL! but my head screamed NO! WHAT WILL YOU SAY? WHAT REASON DO YOU HAVE FOR CALLING HIM? YOUR GONNA MAKE A FOOL OF YOURSELF! so i decided not to make a fool of myself. The only thing is, is that i made a bigger fool of myself for NOT calling him. I had practiced all day what to say, i ran through different topics we could talk aboutin my head, but nothing ever sounded right. I have this horrible feeling that i care to much, although i could be wrong. But what if the feelings aren't mutal? While i know this is a dumb question to keep asking myself, it is still something that i ponder every now and again. It just seems to good to be true.. the undeniably good looking, incredibly smart, and insanely sweet guy went for me. ME! I know im doubting myself, but im afraid that i just wont be able to match up to him.
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IT DOEN'T DO ME ANY GOOD, IT'S JUST A WASTE OF TIME. WHAT USE IS IT TO YOU WHAT'S ON MY MIND. IF IT AINT COMING OUT WE'RE NOT GOING ANYWHERE, SO WHY CAN'T I JUST TELL YOU THAT I CARE. CAUSE I'M FEELING NERVOUS, TRYING TO BE SO PERFECT CAUSE I KNOW YOUR WORTH IT...
* Love like you've never been hurt, work like you don't need the money, and dance like nobody's watching.