UGH!
Have you ever wanted to just be mad at someone. You try really hard, and you have every reason TO be mad, but you just cant seem to stay pissed. You see a picture of them and you smile, and then you think of a past memory and you laugh. UGH! I JUST WANT TO BE MAD, OR ATLEAST LET ME BE REALLY REALLY CRAZY BUMMED! I shouldn't care so much seeing as ive only known him for a short time, talked to him a handful of times, and hung out with him a couple times.. but i care, i REALLY REALLY CARE! For some reason his presence, his opinion, his concerns... IT ALL MATTERS TO ME! AND IT SHOULDN'T! I CAN"T TAKE IT!!! IM DONE!! I shouldn't and I have no good reason to cae this much, so... im gonna stop caring about it and him. i can stay friends.. a nice conversation here and there... but thats it. i refuse to get butterflies anymore at the thought of him. Im not gonna jump up and down like an idiot when i talk to him. If i se him then i see him.. it will no longer be anything to write home about. Its gonna be hard as hell.. but its just something thats gotta be done.
ok... *sigh* here we go.. im gonna do this...
ok... *sigh* here we go.. im gonna do this...