drama in the hk?
I decided to blog about my personal life while i'm here. Since i'm basically friendless there are no peers i can turn to to talk about my personal life. I have new coworkers but since this is only my second day we are still distant and also there is also the weird relationship. So I need to find somewhere to let go of my fustration and fears. So let's start fromt he beginning.
I have not been shopping or eating at cool restaurants or to cool places. My hangout spot at the moment is at the hospital. My grandma had a regular check up almost a week ago and the doctor found that her cancer has come back in her liver...in a different section. the doctor felt that it would be best to remove the cancer sergically ( no the 3 hole surgery but big slice). My grandma does not know she has cancer this time or last time. infact she does not know she had cancer at all. my aut has been lying to her because having cancer is her biggest fear and we (she) did not want her to lose her battling spirit. my grandma also has low blood placid meaning her blood is extremely thin which makes it really hard for her to heal wounds. before the surgery, they gave her 6 bags of placcid. but when they opened her up she was still thin so they gave her 10 more. when she got out she was out of it like the way i get after surgery nausiated dizzy, the works. Shes been healing for the past few days and progressively i think she is getting better but this morning she scared me a little. she was asleep and it looked like she was having a nightmare. her arms were moving all over the place always grabbing on to things tightly. i tried to help her by storking her hand to indicate that she was safe but she still kept mumbling and stuff. Everytime we try to wake her up from the dream she would be able to wake up. she'd ust mumble in confusing and stay asleep. She has asthma and so she was also weazing very heavily. It sounded like she was about to die and i never felt so helpless and scared. not since that time my dad went to the ER which i sucessfully blocked from my memory until today. I wake up at 630 every morning...more later