i wish i could make it better
my honey had the worst day yesterday. trying to buy necessities and then being patient while we burned time at serramonte and losing his beloved 40 gig iPod. then to his mom's place to find a stack of unsubstantiated bills for the dentist and physician. he's on the job search and trying to find a job that will fit his time schedule with school and be sufficient for monthly bills. baby's not used to NOT working. he's always a hard worker and earns his money by doing a great job, and then his new housemates are making him feel restricted from watching tv, coming in late, and other nonsense while he's trying to help clean and such. i don't think its what he expected and i definitely didn't think it would be that strict a household.
*i wish i could win the lottery, pay of my bills and his bills, buy us both awesome (yet practical) cars and a nice little house. then we could both finish school and find jobs that suit us without having to worry so much. he more than me because the major debt i have is from school loans and i have time to pay it off, but Just... its just not fair. life's dealt him from the wrong side of the deck and he's always trying to do the right thing by others. he doesn't steal, he doesn't ask for favors, and he's always trying to be sweet to others. i just wish he could catch a break, you know? find a job that pays him what he deserves and doesn't make him work weekends and live in a place where he feels comfortable being himself.
i know it seems weird that i'm venting on my bf's problems, but they really do matter to me. he's gone through a lot since we started dating and i want, for once, his life to be a little easier. the only thing i can say is that our lives dictate who we become and i know he's a stronger person for what he's been through. hopefully the hard work now will pay off in the end.
school's almost over for me. i may only have two classes spanning 5 days (shakespeare and advanced fiction workshop). i would be totally fine with it except that it strains my internship possibilities. chronicle was very nice in responding to my application, but they said that my limited day schedule kept them from wanting me. macadam/cage sent a reply and said they would like to interview me monday, but i realized i hadn't given them a detailed school schedule and that i wouldn't be able to go to the SF office for 2 entire days a week. if THEY were okay with it i would go everyday after and before school, even though it would suck, so i could get the experience. it would probably be a waste of time though because i get out MWF at 2:30. those were the only classes i needed and the only days i could take them. boo. i've been checking out publishing houses in the area and i'm glad to say there are a lot more than i thought there were. i hope that one of them would be kind enough to give me an entry-level position, but one can only hope at this point. i don't have any actual work experience so all i can do is show them what i'm made of and work hard as always. i am taking a few workshops that should help my chances and the director of that program said she could offer help with any questions, so that's encouraging.
overall life has been good. i've been spending somewhat recklessly because i'm glad i finally don't have to worry about it, but i don't want to get too low in my bank account. if no internships arise i'm going back to work parttime. My schedule's all weird, though, so i hope i find someplace that will be flexible.
i'm awfully chatty tonight.
honestly, i should be reading classics or writing something "creative" but i'm just venting and trying not to worry about what i can't control.
friday jorge, kim, just and i are going to see transformers in IMAX. it'll be jorge and kim's second time, i believe, and just's and my first time seeing it i love IMAX though, whether the movie's as great as everyone says it is or not.
saturday i'm going to rekindle some friendships with girls i was friends with when i was little. fremont days. sigh. i know it might be a little awkward with them, but i hope a little sip here and there will help. it will for sure be a fun thing, though. some of my besties will be busy this weekend away in vegas or with their little nieces or other such things so i won't get to see them even though i miss them. i promised to take steph out for a celebratory meal since she was admitted to an lvn program so that may happen this weekend or next week before school starts.
i couldn't be happier with my relationship right now. he's truly the love of my life and i'm really happy he doesn't have to worry about rent or driving far to get to school, but i just hope he has a happier time living in "the haystack." it's all going to take some adjusting and i'm trying not to be too homesick for him. all we have to do is get through school, support each other, and try to control the chaos that is our life...or our lives. same difference.
k, enough ranting now. thanks for reading!
*i wish i could win the lottery, pay of my bills and his bills, buy us both awesome (yet practical) cars and a nice little house. then we could both finish school and find jobs that suit us without having to worry so much. he more than me because the major debt i have is from school loans and i have time to pay it off, but Just... its just not fair. life's dealt him from the wrong side of the deck and he's always trying to do the right thing by others. he doesn't steal, he doesn't ask for favors, and he's always trying to be sweet to others. i just wish he could catch a break, you know? find a job that pays him what he deserves and doesn't make him work weekends and live in a place where he feels comfortable being himself.
i know it seems weird that i'm venting on my bf's problems, but they really do matter to me. he's gone through a lot since we started dating and i want, for once, his life to be a little easier. the only thing i can say is that our lives dictate who we become and i know he's a stronger person for what he's been through. hopefully the hard work now will pay off in the end.
school's almost over for me. i may only have two classes spanning 5 days (shakespeare and advanced fiction workshop). i would be totally fine with it except that it strains my internship possibilities. chronicle was very nice in responding to my application, but they said that my limited day schedule kept them from wanting me. macadam/cage sent a reply and said they would like to interview me monday, but i realized i hadn't given them a detailed school schedule and that i wouldn't be able to go to the SF office for 2 entire days a week. if THEY were okay with it i would go everyday after and before school, even though it would suck, so i could get the experience. it would probably be a waste of time though because i get out MWF at 2:30. those were the only classes i needed and the only days i could take them. boo. i've been checking out publishing houses in the area and i'm glad to say there are a lot more than i thought there were. i hope that one of them would be kind enough to give me an entry-level position, but one can only hope at this point. i don't have any actual work experience so all i can do is show them what i'm made of and work hard as always. i am taking a few workshops that should help my chances and the director of that program said she could offer help with any questions, so that's encouraging.
overall life has been good. i've been spending somewhat recklessly because i'm glad i finally don't have to worry about it, but i don't want to get too low in my bank account. if no internships arise i'm going back to work parttime. My schedule's all weird, though, so i hope i find someplace that will be flexible.
i'm awfully chatty tonight.
honestly, i should be reading classics or writing something "creative" but i'm just venting and trying not to worry about what i can't control.
friday jorge, kim, just and i are going to see transformers in IMAX. it'll be jorge and kim's second time, i believe, and just's and my first time seeing it i love IMAX though, whether the movie's as great as everyone says it is or not.
saturday i'm going to rekindle some friendships with girls i was friends with when i was little. fremont days. sigh. i know it might be a little awkward with them, but i hope a little sip here and there will help. it will for sure be a fun thing, though. some of my besties will be busy this weekend away in vegas or with their little nieces or other such things so i won't get to see them even though i miss them. i promised to take steph out for a celebratory meal since she was admitted to an lvn program so that may happen this weekend or next week before school starts.
i couldn't be happier with my relationship right now. he's truly the love of my life and i'm really happy he doesn't have to worry about rent or driving far to get to school, but i just hope he has a happier time living in "the haystack." it's all going to take some adjusting and i'm trying not to be too homesick for him. all we have to do is get through school, support each other, and try to control the chaos that is our life...or our lives. same difference.
k, enough ranting now. thanks for reading!