helen daydreams
ive been offered to change shifts ^^ im going to be working thurs frid and saturdays after mark leaves ^^ which chance to take up any overtime on hand on thurs. WOOT! SUNDAYS OFF! heh much better than fridays. even tho i do ellie on thurs nights so i dont know if ill be able to continue it :(
had me head in the clouds today. caroline came over today and when we got a chance to ourselves we had a bit of a chat about my feelings and fears. about taking a chance and not giving a damn about it all. And i spoke of my fears of oppening myself up only to be hurt. but like she said - if you don't act upon your feelings and you miss your chance. Even if its not meant to be at least you know it rather than looking back.
what amused me most was her suggestion to get some money together and us get a room in a sleeplodge. *chuckles* alone with no distractions ><
so yes... i guess thats left me thinking of the future. i cant say i love my 9-5 job... well on and off 9-5 given the randomness of my hours but i cant help visulise the flat with the cat and yes the potted plant. And though the thought of actually being in a relationship leaves me unnerved it is something i know a part deep in me craves. I can see myself living the normal life, working hard during the day knowing there will be someone to return to.
meh idealistic dreams
off tomorrow. seems i will be cleaning my room ¬¬ else mother may kill me. and more watchin of Black adder. oh and blowing of bubbles with lucy outside if the weather is good *_* i love blowing bubbles!
oh i finished my bleach tie ^^ lookie lookie
im going to do one for babs me thinks as thank you for the manga transfer.
had me head in the clouds today. caroline came over today and when we got a chance to ourselves we had a bit of a chat about my feelings and fears. about taking a chance and not giving a damn about it all. And i spoke of my fears of oppening myself up only to be hurt. but like she said - if you don't act upon your feelings and you miss your chance. Even if its not meant to be at least you know it rather than looking back.
what amused me most was her suggestion to get some money together and us get a room in a sleeplodge. *chuckles* alone with no distractions ><
so yes... i guess thats left me thinking of the future. i cant say i love my 9-5 job... well on and off 9-5 given the randomness of my hours but i cant help visulise the flat with the cat and yes the potted plant. And though the thought of actually being in a relationship leaves me unnerved it is something i know a part deep in me craves. I can see myself living the normal life, working hard during the day knowing there will be someone to return to.
meh idealistic dreams
off tomorrow. seems i will be cleaning my room ¬¬ else mother may kill me. and more watchin of Black adder. oh and blowing of bubbles with lucy outside if the weather is good *_* i love blowing bubbles!
oh i finished my bleach tie ^^ lookie lookie
im going to do one for babs me thinks as thank you for the manga transfer.