sometimes i just wanna snap...right now is one of these times.
so ive been fighting with avas mom all fuckin week because she was trying to get me to sign some contract marriage with her so that she can get more benefits from the government and when i die shell get 3 times as much money.
"youre worth more to me dead than alive....."
no exaggeration...
fucking excuse me but you just brought poverty to my doorstep for the next.....fuck it the rest of my life. what makes you think that i even have the time of day for you. id kill you if i had the chance. you just subscribed me to the next 16 years of mandatory charity and im supposed to be happy about that? im supposed to have some kinda warm fuzzy spot in my heart for you big enough to say "well shes taking a lot of my money now, why not just give her all of it?! fuck it my parents dont need any of that money and neither do the people that actually deserve it."
you will get what you are entitled to, what you deserve, and nothing more. which WILL probably be nothing anyway. ill see to it that it happens like that.
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iraq has been canceled for my battalion...were not going anymore. im very happy about that. im leaving fort bragg for good next month. im even happier about that.
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i just started an online course this week and im already gonna cancel it because its the biggest waste of my time.
RQ295 "introduction to online courses"
it doesnt actually teach you how to navigate any of the classes, the curriculum is entirely worthless, mindless, and insults your intelligence, and i get what i imagine to be the same feeling that beavis and butthead had every time they were sitting in mr van driessens classroom.
it seems like im completely lost in this world anymore
i need to stop learning about useless shit like math and history and sociology and start learning important shit like how to make bomb vests...