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well another day at work and well it was a slow day and that was goof. but theres something that bugs me every day and well its about the one thing that everyone looks for but they dont find it it finds them.....love. who really knows what it is? is it something u start to feel after becoming close to someone or is it something that we all are afraid of?love has its good and bad points.heres a brief list
GOOD:
1 feeling of being needed
2 good fantasies about the future
3 always knowing that someone is there for you at the end of the day
4 the surprises that come here and there
BAD:
1 not knowing if they love you the same way
2 not feeling that you trust the person
3 being parinoid of what he/she is doing when they go out with the guys/girls
4 worrieing that your going to be hurt of they are going to hurt you
those are only some of the things that i can say about love and concidering that i've really only felt it once really in my life i really don't know what to do if i fall in love again. and well i guess if it comes then it does and thats all that i can say i just hope that no one get hurt in the end.but i've realized that im still lonely and well i don't know myself anymore when i look at my self all i see is a person trying to be different and well is lost in her own mind. its fucked up and wellall i can say is i need guisence and i know it. but i don't know where to turn next, the only things that i have going in my life right now is my boyfriend rick, and my job. i used to be so carefree and not care what people thought of my, but that was lost along with soo many other things about me. i think the reason why im sooo nice to people is because its the only thing that i have left is the people that like that bit of me/but i don't even know if i can be soo nice for much longer. if anyone reads this a little bit of direction would be nice.
GOOD:
1 feeling of being needed
2 good fantasies about the future
3 always knowing that someone is there for you at the end of the day
4 the surprises that come here and there
BAD:
1 not knowing if they love you the same way
2 not feeling that you trust the person
3 being parinoid of what he/she is doing when they go out with the guys/girls
4 worrieing that your going to be hurt of they are going to hurt you
those are only some of the things that i can say about love and concidering that i've really only felt it once really in my life i really don't know what to do if i fall in love again. and well i guess if it comes then it does and thats all that i can say i just hope that no one get hurt in the end.but i've realized that im still lonely and well i don't know myself anymore when i look at my self all i see is a person trying to be different and well is lost in her own mind. its fucked up and wellall i can say is i need guisence and i know it. but i don't know where to turn next, the only things that i have going in my life right now is my boyfriend rick, and my job. i used to be so carefree and not care what people thought of my, but that was lost along with soo many other things about me. i think the reason why im sooo nice to people is because its the only thing that i have left is the people that like that bit of me/but i don't even know if i can be soo nice for much longer. if anyone reads this a little bit of direction would be nice.