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well another day come and gone as usual.i feel lonely and rick wants to hook back up.i don't know what to tell him. i know that i shouldn't but he really was a good guy. last night we were talking and we realized that we were walking on eggshells around each other.makeing sure that we didn't piss each other off and well i think that, that was the problem.i even made a list one time of things i had to talk to him about but were never brought up because we were walking on eggshells.i just want to be happy, do what at least some people have managed to do get married, have a child or 2, have a good job,a house with a white picket fence(metaphorically speaking) and all that jazz.i think that its sad that i want that now.i guess its because i want someone there like well i hate to say it......like brandon.even though he was 4 hrs away he was there more than i knew he was.