soooo pissed right now
well tonight was supposed to be a romantic night for me and rick and well it never happened.....surprise,surprise. i had everyting set up and he never called to say"no hunny im not comeing over". he just told me that he would call me to let me know what was going on. that was earlier today and last night. im really thinking of not going to the show tomarrow. and thats rare for me not to go to joyces keg room on a band night. i put a lot into this relationship and now it seems that he doesn't put that much in.i go get his grocies,clean and all that house type shit.i had the house clean, the table set up, i had the whole romantic setting going on.i don't think he really appreacates me at all. i do soo much for him and he can't stop drinking long enough to come have a romantic dinner over at my house. i was asking him about tonight for 2 days now and all i got was "i need to see whats goin on tomarow" and all that bull shit.what he di tonight really hurt me and well now i'm just sooo pissed at him.i help him get through the month and i pay soo much attention to him and im the oh so supportive band girlfriend.god i want ot kill him right now. concidering i was thinking of takeing the next step tonight.if you know what i mean.
you know what else buggs teh hell out of me? how when im over there most of the time hes playing video games. i dont really get to see him that much so what time i spend with him i like to have his attention and i know that thats not a bad thing.also i've been telling him for 2 months now that he has to come over and meet mom and dad since it never happened. but now im really doubting our relationship.he just seems to be a douchbag to me right now. and his brother even told me to make the plans for dinner tonight. and its like they dont give a shit about anyone but themselves. he better bet that he has a lot to make up for right now.
you know what else buggs teh hell out of me? how when im over there most of the time hes playing video games. i dont really get to see him that much so what time i spend with him i like to have his attention and i know that thats not a bad thing.also i've been telling him for 2 months now that he has to come over and meet mom and dad since it never happened. but now im really doubting our relationship.he just seems to be a douchbag to me right now. and his brother even told me to make the plans for dinner tonight. and its like they dont give a shit about anyone but themselves. he better bet that he has a lot to make up for right now.