A personal post for any and all to see

[hell_katzen]

Because I can, because I want to,
NEED to maybe...
Because if you have to break in where you aren't wanted,
that speaks worlds about who you are and aren't...
If I choose to open my door to you, it is also my option to shut it.
I have no desire for this in my life, mistakes have been made,
but from here on out I will not play these games,
I do not care.
Because if psychotic actions and rip me to shreds with spiteful word,
I do not care.
Because if sky were to meet earth, I would sit calmly,
and take in the splendor of decay...
spilling out ribbons of years worn.

Seeing a true reflection of self, of all this is,
you wouldn't even know me... not that you really do
or perhaps it just can't be.

So many things, little things, mean more then what would be told.
And you say you want to give this to me...
Hand me your heart, in pieces,
tears on the stained upholestry
your words become weapons
and eyes of the ocean

And a look to those loved, trying to find reason
where there simply is none
blood red flows grey in a state of numb
distance
I give, I forgive, I forget, we move on
time waits for no one.

I miss him, I miss you,
th things felt for so long,
still there, lost under soft folds
I think
if you held on long enough
you might be able to feel
the empty inside.

For all the past year and a half has taught
for all the past twenty-five years have brought
for all we have been and could be
or should have been
as one door shuts
another door opens
every cliche in its glory
we hope to live another day
and breath anew.