I remember...
...wanting to sleep. Now it seems that I put it off until the moment before the moment I collapse.
I blame my overactive imagination.
I feel very... out of sorts right now. I guess slightly trashy fanfiction will do that to you. Actually, most of what I read wasn't trashy. It was fluffy and delicious. But it left me thinking of my feelings toward a few people, and now I'm just... upset.
I am very sad, but also kind of glad that I didn't go to Omaha. I'm sad because I didn't get to see Amber, nor did I get to spend time with my crew, in an attempt to relive the good ol' days. I think I would have come back more confused than I feel now though. So I suppose I'm thankful for that.
It's strange, trying to understand why and how you feel the way you do about people in your life. Often, for me, it doesn't make a lick of sense. I mean, hell, when I first liked Jordan, I thought I had gone completely crazy. At the time, he was just this guy I knew from my classes that I could sort of joke around with, but in the end it always turned into him teasing me, and I would get frustrated. I hear that's why a lot of people LIKE to tease me. They enjoy my over-the-top reactions. I don't do it on purpose. That's just... me.
Yeah, I'm a bit tired.
ROY: Are you pissed? (A/N: as in, drunk)
JEN: A little.
ROY: Ah.
Sorry, felt the need to quote The IT Crowd. I watch that show obsessively these days. That, and South Park. I mostly turn it on as background noise at night, but it still makes me chuckle every now and then.
I want to get my hair cut in the fashion of my favorite character from Persona 4. I think it would just make my face look fat. And, it also wouldn't work because I don't have straight hair. Blargh.
Yeah, I'm all over the place tonight.
What else? Jordan's nieces are in town for Halloween, and we were supposed to babysit them yesterday. Turns out only Jordan babysat them, because I was sleeping. He told them I was sick. They made me get well soon cards. It made me a little sad and disappointed in myself.
I think... I may be losing my mind. And I'm dragging Jordan along for the ride. Poor guy.
I'm sorry, everyone. A lot of people in my life deserve an apology from me right now.
I hate my apartment. It's never clean, and it makes me feel dirty and lazy. I feel like Jordan does everything around here.
Holy... crap. I'm done. I think I've pitied myself enough for one evening... or morning.
I blame my overactive imagination.
I feel very... out of sorts right now. I guess slightly trashy fanfiction will do that to you. Actually, most of what I read wasn't trashy. It was fluffy and delicious. But it left me thinking of my feelings toward a few people, and now I'm just... upset.
I am very sad, but also kind of glad that I didn't go to Omaha. I'm sad because I didn't get to see Amber, nor did I get to spend time with my crew, in an attempt to relive the good ol' days. I think I would have come back more confused than I feel now though. So I suppose I'm thankful for that.
It's strange, trying to understand why and how you feel the way you do about people in your life. Often, for me, it doesn't make a lick of sense. I mean, hell, when I first liked Jordan, I thought I had gone completely crazy. At the time, he was just this guy I knew from my classes that I could sort of joke around with, but in the end it always turned into him teasing me, and I would get frustrated. I hear that's why a lot of people LIKE to tease me. They enjoy my over-the-top reactions. I don't do it on purpose. That's just... me.
Yeah, I'm a bit tired.
ROY: Are you pissed? (A/N: as in, drunk)
JEN: A little.
ROY: Ah.
Sorry, felt the need to quote The IT Crowd. I watch that show obsessively these days. That, and South Park. I mostly turn it on as background noise at night, but it still makes me chuckle every now and then.
I want to get my hair cut in the fashion of my favorite character from Persona 4. I think it would just make my face look fat. And, it also wouldn't work because I don't have straight hair. Blargh.
Yeah, I'm all over the place tonight.
What else? Jordan's nieces are in town for Halloween, and we were supposed to babysit them yesterday. Turns out only Jordan babysat them, because I was sleeping. He told them I was sick. They made me get well soon cards. It made me a little sad and disappointed in myself.
I think... I may be losing my mind. And I'm dragging Jordan along for the ride. Poor guy.
I'm sorry, everyone. A lot of people in my life deserve an apology from me right now.
I hate my apartment. It's never clean, and it makes me feel dirty and lazy. I feel like Jordan does everything around here.
Holy... crap. I'm done. I think I've pitied myself enough for one evening... or morning.