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mr_angel May 5 2005, 03:52:13 UTC
Ten steps forward? Okay. I started walking, counting my steps carefully. I guessed that I was walking forward, but I really couldn't tell. Was I walking straight forward, to the side, diagonal? Whatever I was doing, I felt like I was getting a bit closer.

"Okay. Forget that. Keep moving towards my voice!"

Her voice was louder and I had a feeling I was going in the right direction. Cordelia was here..this had to be some sort of heaven. She'd never get sent to hell after all she'd done, after all she'd been through. She'd become a higher being after all. You'd think that she'd get to choose where she got to spend eternity.

Holding out my hands, I felt like I was walking blind. Before I could take but a couple more steps, I ran into something. I blinked a couple times, trying to get my eyes to adjust to the darkness or at least be able to see something. As I looked in front of me, I began to see a figure standing there in front of me.

"Angel?"

I couldn't speak. We might have both been dead, but she was still here. She was still here standing right in front of me. Finding her face, I placed a hand on her cheek and smiled. "Cordy," I stated finally.

"I-..It's been-.." Closing my eyes, I lowered my hand to her shoulder. After a moment, I opened my eyes and began to see her in front of me. "I've missed you..so much."

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parting_gifts May 6 2005, 00:51:37 UTC
I grinned as he finally approached me, rather ran into me. Glancing up at him, I raised my brows.

"Cordy,"... "I-..It's been-.."

"Don't worry bout the whole dark and not being able to see thing. You end up adjusting once we get the hell out of here. At least you had me for a welcoming party."

I smiled. This made this .. heaven, hell, whatever, a much better place. I didn't feel so lonely. Cause, well, this could be a lonely place.

"Well don't just stand there, give me a hug and tell me how good I look!" I said to him as I wrapped my arms around him and giving him a big .. welcome to wherever the hell we were hug.

Now that he was here, I was beginning to question where the hell I was. Because, well, I didn't think I was in hell. But I wasn't feeling the heaven-type vibe. Whatever.

"No one else is here. Right?" I asked, almost nervously. I couldn't stand the thought of me being here, much less Angel being here. It wasn't right or fair, but if the rest of the gang was here .. then this was really REALLY wrong.

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mr_angel May 10 2005, 06:20:07 UTC
She wrapped her arms me and I smiled, sighing a bit. Where ever we were..I could care less right now. We both were dead, but together. I put my arms around her almost carefully, not wanting her to fade away. Dead or not, her scent was still the same and she had every single Cordelia characteristic that I remembered and loved about her.

After a little while, I pulled back from her a bit to look at her. "You do look good, Cordy. They been taking good care of you?" I asked. It sounded a little like a joke, but really something that I wanted and needed to know. I wanted to know she was okay. Because if this was hell then that wasn't an option, right? It sure wasn't for me the first time.

"No one else is here. Right?"

My eyes automatically left her gaze and I pulled back a bit more and cleared my throat. Were they here? I really didn't know. Had others died? Too many. Nodding silently, I looked back at her. "There were others..I don't know if they're here, but there are some others."

It was obvious she wanted to know who, but I wasn't sure if she'd like it if I actually told her. She didn't even know about what had happened to Fred, and from her not mentioning anything I guessed that she hadn't seen her here. I wasn't sure if that was a good or bad thing right now.

"Not long after you..well, something happened. Fred, she-she died." Clearing my throat again, I moved a hand to her shoulder. "The night I-..well, the night that I died we were in a battle. We challenged the Senior Partners and well, I guess we lost. I did at least. We all fought. Spike, Gunn, Wesley, myself,.. and a former god called Illyria." I decided to leave the part of her looking like Fred out of the story until later.

"Wesley died just before the actual battle, but he died doing what I asked him to do. The others.. I really don't know if they made it out or not," I said with a sigh. Had they all died? I really didn't know, but hoped that they hadn't.

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parting_gifts May 13 2005, 01:39:52 UTC
"They meaning the Powers or they meaning whoever is running this place? Cause well, neither have shown up lately. You gotta take care of yourself around here. Kinda lonely."

I gave him a half-hearted smile. I was okay, fine even. I was getting used to this place .. hell, I can't even describe it. But I was awfully confused because of one simple fact : if this was heaven, why the hell weren't the Powers around doing their Power-ful duties? I mean, hello, even Skip came around once or twice when I was a Higher Being. Maybe Angel could help me figure this one out, cause I obviously wasn't getting it on my own.

And I wasn't even blonde anymore.

I crossed my arms over my chest as he took his time to actually distinguish between the who's that died. Fred? She didn't deserve to die. At all. I remembered Pylea.

That's when it struck me. Angel was really truly dead. I wasn't imagining things. I grabbed his hand to check things for myself.

"Wesley?" I managed to choke out. FredandWesandAngel. It was all just becoming a blur. I shook my head. I wasn't going to cry.

I had a reason for dying. I did what I had too and my time was over. But them .. they had so much left. And here I was standing speechless in wherever the hell we were.

"We have to find them if they're here." I said softly, glancing back up at him. I put on a determined face. Maybe he was wrong. Maybe they were still alive and this was some REALLY really crappy dream.

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mr_angel May 14 2005, 07:49:46 UTC
She took in everything I said and I brought the hand that she took to cup her face. I nodded slowly as she repeated Wesley's name back to me. "Yes. Wesley.. all of them."

"We have to find them if they're here."

I nodded slowly. Was it possible that they could all be here and we just needed to find them? Had Fred been here for the past few months and her and Cordy hadn't found each other? Sighing, I looked around all of the nothing. If they were in fact here, then this was going to be a lot harder than one would think. I just hoped that they weren't all alone and by themselves like I'd been at first.

Sighing again, I looked back at her. "I just can't believe that I'm.. we're here. What kind of place is this? This sure isn't the hell that I remember."

No, the hell I remember was much more painful than this. And even though I hated the lonliness and the lost feeling I'd felt when I first got here, I still preferred it to the constant torture of what I'd seen and been through on my first visit to hell.

This was something different.

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parting_gifts May 15 2005, 20:00:56 UTC
"I just can't believe that I'm.. we're here. What kind of place is this? This sure isn't the hell that I remember."

What kind of place is this? Good question. I wasn't even sure.

"I'm not sure. There's other people around here and what not, but nobody is friendly. And there's a lot of nothing. It's like Los Angeles, I guess, only lonelier."

Was that a right description? Sure why not. Everyone down here or up here or whatever wandered aimlessly. And apparently Fred was here for a while and we never ran into each other. Which wigged me out a lot.

So maybe this little place that we'd be staying in for the next eternity wouldn't be so bad now that I had some kind of company. Or maybe we'd end up fighting the baddies again as usual. I glanced back up at Angel and raised my brows.

"Okay. Let's start walking back to .. wherever I just came from. Cause all this darkness is really annoying me."

And you know what the funny part was? I was supposed to be Angel's guide or whatever because of my visions .. and I didn't even know what the hell I was doing.

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mr_angel May 25 2005, 01:53:52 UTC
"I'm not sure. There's other people around here and what not, but nobody is friendly. And there's a lot of nothing. It's like Los Angeles, I guess, only lonelier."

I smiled a little. Los Angeles was a place I never thought I would miss, but being here in the nothing? If it wasn't for Cordy being here I'd almost prefer the fire and brimstone hell from before than this place. Something had to be better than nothing.

"Lonelier than LA? I never knew that was possible?"

Was this the place where I'd spend the rest of my eternity? If it was then I wanted a trade in. Send us back to Los Angeles to keep fighting for the Powers or what not. It had to be better than being here. The only thing that I loved about the place was seeing Cordelia again. Seeing her and holding her in my arms.

"Okay. Let's start walking back to .. wherever I just came from. Cause all this darkness is really annoying me."

Shrugging, I nodded. "Well, then lead the way."

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parting_gifts May 25 2005, 21:05:22 UTC
[Welcome back, by the by. = ) ]

I grabbed his hand as we started walking back towards the main part of .. hell. Whatever. Glancing up at him, I frowned.

"You're still a vampire right? I mean, when you die, you don't lose that do you?"

Okay, he was probably thinking there really was something wrong with me at the moment, and I actually did sound like I was flashing back to when I first came out to LA and met him at the party. But it wasn't a stupid question. Yeah, I'd been dead for a few months and what not, but the whole meeting up with a vampire after his death was new to me.

"Listen. I have a completely logical reason for asking this. If you're still a vampire, then shouldn't you have night vision and all?"

After all, it would help with the darkness.

Walking back down we finally got into where the streets and what not lightened up.

"Remember the apartment I had when I first moved out here? The before-Doyle apartment? Yeah. Well, where I'm staying now .. it's about two steps above that place. It's not half as bad. I figured we could go there." I said, raising a brow in his direction.

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mr_angel May 30 2005, 00:23:11 UTC
[Thank-ya!]

Smiling when she took my hand, I followed her lead. What else could I do but that around this place. It's not like I knew where I was going.

"You're still a vampire right? I mean, when you die, you don't lose that do you?"

Frowning, I had no idea if I was still a vampire or not. The last time I died and went to hell, I came back a vampire. But was this time different? I was actually killed this time and not just sucked into hell like before. I hadn't actually thought about that until now.

"Umm.." I felt my face vamp. Nodding a bit, I changed back. "Guess so." Some things never change even in death, huh?

"Night vision?" Normally, yes. But here? I had no idea. "I'm not sure if that applies here or not. So far? Not much."

I listened to her talk about where she was staying. Heaven? This couldn't be heaven. But how come she was here? She deserved so much more than this. So much more than where ever the hell we were.

"I remember. And that's fine," I said with a small smile. "I'm sure it's..well, I bet it's the nicest place here." I said hopefully, but found that it came out not so much.

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parting_gifts May 31 2005, 21:15:34 UTC
"Okay. So if I said that if there was a big beastie that liked to attack, you'd have no problem beating him. Good." I said, glancing up at him.

"Oh. No. No big beastie now. Just in case." I said, a small smile on my face. "Oh and trust me, the place is not the nicest place here." I said, the small immediately replaced by a scowl. "Far from it."

"So, is this anything like hell?" I asked, raising a brow at him. Obviously referencing the time that Summers sent him to hell, and well, it had to be painful. But still, I'd like to know whether this was a lesser hell.

"Okay. So really blunt in that question. What I meant to say was, is this a lesser version of hell? Or is hell really all fire and brimstone?"

Because this is the conversation EVERYONE wanted to here when they first died. Hey, I was glad I had someone to converse with. And not just someone, but my best friend. He had a nicer entrance then I did. At least he got me for a welcoming committee.

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mr_angel June 2 2005, 04:20:41 UTC
Smiling a little at that, I shrugged. "Give me a little while, I might take up that challenge. But as for now, I'm glad there's nothing to beat. This vampire is beated out. for now."

Though the last thing I wanted right now was to run into something I'd have to fight, I'm sure that in a few days my need to kill something would return in full force. Then again.. if we were dead - wouldn't the 'beasties' be dead too? Was it actually possible to kill them.. again?

"So, is this anything like hell?"

Glancing around, I shook my head with another shrug. "Well, it's been a while, but this wasn't how I left it. No, the hell I remember did have that fire and brimstone you see in the pictures."

My visit to hell was more of the literal you're gonna 'burn in hell' theory. This was more of the you're gonna 'bore in hell' theory.

As I looked around, I couldn't help but cringe at the sight of a few things as they popped into view. This might not be the hell I remember, but it wasn't any heaven either. Or I hoped it wasn't heaven.

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parting_gifts June 3 2005, 22:17:14 UTC
"Well, I guess I should be breathing a sigh of relief. You know with the whole lack of fire thing. Fire and brimstone don't do much for my hair." I smiled as we stopped walking.

Glancing up to a big gloomy looking building, which happened to be where my apartment was located, I forced a smile over at him.

"Home sweet hell." I said, with a small shrug. "I've come to the shocking revelation that this is one of the nicer places around here."

I opened the door which hey, wasn't locked as was usual and we started up the hallway.

"The only thing that's missing from my place is Dennis. But then again, you should see some of the other people that live in this building. They could more then make up for Dennis."

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mr_angel June 8 2005, 04:02:05 UTC
"Yeah," I said as I looked around. "Mine either." Smiling a bit at her, I turned to the building in front of us as we stopped.

This was one of the nicer places around here? Well, maybe that's a little on the.. not comforting side of things. "It's, uh.. well, I can honestly say it's better than a handful of places I've stayed."

She opened up the door and we stepped inside. From the looks of this place, she was missing a few more things besides Dennis. Although, I'm sure that was a big hole she wasn't having filled. But maybe..I don't know, at least she wasn't alone now.

"Well, now they have a dead va-.." I stopped. Hadn't I always been actually dead? "Dead vampire added to the bunch."

We finally made it down the hallway and to her door where she stopped. Was this the type of place where I'd need an invitation? I guessed no, but I guess we'll just see.

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parting_gifts June 8 2005, 18:38:15 UTC
"Yeah yeah. Don't lie. It's a craphole, but at least it's on the safer side of town. And I haven't seen a roach yet. Which is kinda comforting, but then again with the not-so." I said, frowning.

Opening the door, I walked in and flicked on the light. Okay, tried it twice before it worked but still. Once the light flicked on, I glanced around.

It wasn't as dirty or disgusting as when I had first found it. I had cleaned it up a little and there was already furniture in it. Walking over and into the kitchen/dining room thing, I flicked on another light, so that the room was pretty well lit.

Then it occurred to me that Angel still hadn't entered the room.

"So dead vampire that's been added to the bunch ... don't tell me you're afraid of my apartment." I said, a smile forming on my lips.

"Or do you still have to be invited in?"

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mr_angel June 10 2005, 05:33:46 UTC
Smiling a little, I peeked past the doorway to look a bit inside the apartment. Taking a step or two, I ended up finding myself on the inside and not caught behind that unseen barrier.

"I guess somethings change when you're in h-.. where ever we are."

I stuffed my hands in my pockets and looked around. "So, all the time you've been here.. what exactly is it that you do all day - or is it night?" I asked.

Maybe there'd be a demon or two to send to hell or.. something.

I started to wonder if anyone else was here. Was Wesley or Fred here? Or anyone else for that matter. I guess there's the possibility of others being here. Maybe we'd be able to do some looking tomorrow - or today. Hell if I know.

Hell. That seems to be the common word right now.

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parting_gifts June 13 2005, 01:12:07 UTC
"Angel, I think it's safe to say out loud that we're in hell." I said, a small smile on my face as I opened the fridge. "Want something to drink? Water .. soda .. old dairy creamers?"

Okay. So my fridge at home didn't differ too much from my one here. Not like anyone else with taste buds lived here.

"I don't have any blood cause I wasn't expecting visitors. Of any kind."

Which wasn't a lie. Angel was the LAST person I'd expect to see down here with me. I grabbed two bottles of water before walking back over to the couch and sitting down. I placed them on the table before motioning for him to come sit. We had some catching up to do.

"Uhm, I think it's safe to say that we're in a pretty constant state of night. Though the sun peaks through occasionally. And I do what I would do back in LA. Which, is a whole lot of nothing."

To say the least.

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