i know better than to think too much...
Okay.. for those of you who really knows me.. you know I don't really like having to ask people for help. Well shit! Now I would like to ask for some advice...
A few days ago I left my mother a message on yahoo. Telling her I needed to talk to her. She never answered. I left a few more saying, more or less, that she needs to check her messages ( pointless I know but it made me feel better) She called me today, and asked me why I was being so mean to her. I told her I needed to talk to her, and like usual she wasn't there for me. She got mad. Went on some big rave on how shit was bad for her. Her power was getting cut off, she had an ear ache, she was sick, blah blah blah. Same old crap. Same fucking story, different day. I told her what I wanted when I messaged her. Getting my license is no longer a luxury. Papaw is REALLY sick. Not just the congestive heart failure... really sick. Doctor Nickels said oxygen and blood aren't getting to his brain. Thats why he has been so off balance, and hasn't been thinking right. He don't know where he is half of the time and always looks so confused. And I know I don't have the patience for this. Sad to say but I lose my patience with my sick grandfather. But yea. Now I got this stupid fear that something is going to happen to him one night, that he might stop breathing in hi sleep. He has to go back to the hospital soon to check and see if the medication is making him any better. But back to my mother.. she is apparently having a hard time with her life and shit. But I am the only person around who would take papaw to the hospital if he needs it. My aunt would BUT she lives a pretty good way away.. it takes her an hour to get here.. and another one to get to the hospital. Shit! By that time I could already have gotten him to the mouth of penny to an ambulance... but should I go for the whole custody thing? I know it would kill her to do it but she just inst helping me at all. I offered to pay her $200 to come down here to sign the damn paper so as I could take me permit test.. but she refused. And I'm getting really sick of her bullshit lies. I know she might have problems with money.. but I also know how she likes to blow money... so heres my question to you... fight with hr for another year and a half and live in fear knowing I cont do shit (I hate being helpless).. or ave Ellen or granny take custody of me? i know what i want... but i dont know what is the right thing to do....
A few days ago I left my mother a message on yahoo. Telling her I needed to talk to her. She never answered. I left a few more saying, more or less, that she needs to check her messages ( pointless I know but it made me feel better) She called me today, and asked me why I was being so mean to her. I told her I needed to talk to her, and like usual she wasn't there for me. She got mad. Went on some big rave on how shit was bad for her. Her power was getting cut off, she had an ear ache, she was sick, blah blah blah. Same old crap. Same fucking story, different day. I told her what I wanted when I messaged her. Getting my license is no longer a luxury. Papaw is REALLY sick. Not just the congestive heart failure... really sick. Doctor Nickels said oxygen and blood aren't getting to his brain. Thats why he has been so off balance, and hasn't been thinking right. He don't know where he is half of the time and always looks so confused. And I know I don't have the patience for this. Sad to say but I lose my patience with my sick grandfather. But yea. Now I got this stupid fear that something is going to happen to him one night, that he might stop breathing in hi sleep. He has to go back to the hospital soon to check and see if the medication is making him any better. But back to my mother.. she is apparently having a hard time with her life and shit. But I am the only person around who would take papaw to the hospital if he needs it. My aunt would BUT she lives a pretty good way away.. it takes her an hour to get here.. and another one to get to the hospital. Shit! By that time I could already have gotten him to the mouth of penny to an ambulance... but should I go for the whole custody thing? I know it would kill her to do it but she just inst helping me at all. I offered to pay her $200 to come down here to sign the damn paper so as I could take me permit test.. but she refused. And I'm getting really sick of her bullshit lies. I know she might have problems with money.. but I also know how she likes to blow money... so heres my question to you... fight with hr for another year and a half and live in fear knowing I cont do shit (I hate being helpless).. or ave Ellen or granny take custody of me? i know what i want... but i dont know what is the right thing to do....