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fi_chan October 20 2008, 06:38:51 UTC
Okay, I'm ranting to you on MSN but I'll comment here anyway ^^

....damn I am livid. Absolutely livid. As you know I know what it feels like and dammit it's not something you can forget so easily. I, to this day have NEVER forgiven that girl for what she did to me. So you be angry Gian, they deserve it!!!

Although despite this horrible thing (and the other horrible events you told me about) I am actually quite relieved right now because I didn't know of anyone else who had gone through the hell I had gone through... Seriously, I'm getting angry tears in my eyes right now even thinking about that story I just told you.

One of my favourite songs in the WORLD is 'affirmation' by savage garden, and I really respect Darren hayes... but there is a line in that song "forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness" and I'm sorry but I just don't agree for once. I find it really hard to forgive that girl, as I am sure you feel right now with those bitches you ranted about. I can't see how forgiveness will help me? What is it going to do??? Let her win after all??? It's not gonna make me move on at all... I will never be able to forget what happened to me so what use is forgiveness?

i guess, I just wanted to ask someone who had gone through similar things, whether NOT forgiving her/them makes me a bad person? Hmmm... It's been bugging me for ages as I am sure you can tell. LOL!!!

Goodness...is this pathetic? Still getting emotional about something that happened over 14 months ago.... >

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hell_angel_v2 October 20 2008, 06:50:59 UTC
*huggles you tight* who said i'm angry? i'm effing furious!!

omfg!! the ipod incident!!! and the crying-in-bed incident!!! i feel like i know you so much better!

are you effing kidding?! i can try to forget but never, NEVER, NEVER forgive!! sometimes forgiveness just makes them think they can do it to you again, and for people bitches like these, you know they'll abuse it. and if all sins were meant to be forgiven, why the heck do sins exist in the first place?! there are times when unforgiveness is the key to opening their eyes. there are times when you have to be cruel to be kind.

the friend chicken incident i mentioned happened 5 years ago. if you're pathetic, then what am i? XD

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fi_chan October 20 2008, 07:10:12 UTC
Ahhh yes, I don't blame you in the slightest.

Yeh who would have though we had so many disaster/tragedies in common! Like the PM incident and now the bullying incidence... ahhh I really can't believe we have both shared so many experiences!!! XD I feel closer to you too~~

When you mentioned the ipod thing too... I could believe it! I can still remember that incident so clearly in my mind so wow, i have a twin now! XD

I always felt so...i dunno, betrayed, felt cynical towards concepts of justice and all that, so it really does make me happy to know that I'm really not alone at all in going through that terrible stuff.

AHH GOOD! Coz I just find it way too hard to forgive...I firmly believe that that cow does NOT deserve it, but it sounds mean when I phrase it like that and blah blah blah it's a neverending cycle of anger VS guilt. -_-;;

Wow 5 years ago? You poor thing! At least mine just exploded in one year and got it over and done with (granted, i WAS trying to study for my future at the time ><). I didn't have to put up with her crap for over 5 years. You certainly have had to put up with a LOT! ><

Like Chul and Jae in my fic, we are sisters of the same trauma!! How bizarre~ XD

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hell_angel_v2 October 20 2008, 11:50:58 UTC
lol, how can i forget that PMing incident? It kindled our bonds. XD

*hugs* i know how terrible you must've felt. *kicks them for you* lol, and pretty twins, i bet~ XDD

yea, knowing that fate hadn't isolated me for all this undeserved suffering kind of makes it easier to bear. shared pain always is.

yea, look at where forgiveness led me. for 6 years, we forgave an forgave, and we're the ones who end up betrayed. there's always a time to draw the line, and now i could only wish we drew it sooner. from now on, my forgiveness goes out to only those who deserve it.

ahh~~ i'll have to be heechul then, coz i think he's prettier it's simply too overwhelming to be jae. now, who's gonna be our yunho? LOL

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