update 2:
slowly getting better. i'm putting the weight back on now. pretty fast actually. i'm back to eating just about everything...with an emphasis on the ben and jerry's... oy.
i still really really miss her in my life how we were, but i also know that i would just be pulling her into something she wouldn't want. maybe we'll become awesome friends and that would be cool.
thank God for poems, music, friends, and my family. i don't know if i'd be here without them. they helped me realize that i'm not such a bad person, and that i deserve someone who appreciates me for me blah blah blah...
i'm just gonna work on dealing with solitude and embracing it right now. i hope my family and friends understand this.
tata for now.
i still really really miss her in my life how we were, but i also know that i would just be pulling her into something she wouldn't want. maybe we'll become awesome friends and that would be cool.
thank God for poems, music, friends, and my family. i don't know if i'd be here without them. they helped me realize that i'm not such a bad person, and that i deserve someone who appreciates me for me blah blah blah...
i'm just gonna work on dealing with solitude and embracing it right now. i hope my family and friends understand this.
tata for now.