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here i am a new person its a new fucking day and my body continues to regenerate and i question what the fuck it means to say my body. my body? who is me? the billions of organisms that run this creature... so much information stored, processing, traveling... the other night michael and i were talking, oh i cant even recall what we were talking about in this moment. i remember the emotions, the shifts in awareness. the gratitude that came up. for this person who has chosen to be with me. to sit in the discomfort together. to dedicate time and energy to working on self in relationship to other. because thats how we fucking grow. how we shine the light on our shadows.
sunday and monday i went to reheasals for whiteness, this project with sarah lu. i am so excited to be in this group. to learn, to connect, to be vulnerable. to witness and be involved in the process of developing work. and in such a way that is so deeply in alignment with how i want to create group work. im on this path that still seems so unclear. and yet, there it is, continuously before me.
i went to see midsommar yesterday. with kate! what a dream! it was so hard to ask her if she wanted to go see it with me. but fuck, i am so glad i did. i read on social media that a couple folks i know were disappointed in the movie. but based on the directors previous film, hereditary and the previews for this one, i still had such high hopes. and i was not disappointed. it was fun to talk about it afterwards too.
the headwaters was broken into, vandalized and robbed last week. this is just after a rent increase with another to follow in the winter. tomorrow we are doing a space clearing ceremony in the theatre. my relationship to mizu and that space has changed so dramatically after our conversation this past spring. developing trust and building relationships...
this thursday will be my last appt. with lauren until november. feeling sad about that. and also curious where i will be in my life when we pick up again.
sunday and monday i went to reheasals for whiteness, this project with sarah lu. i am so excited to be in this group. to learn, to connect, to be vulnerable. to witness and be involved in the process of developing work. and in such a way that is so deeply in alignment with how i want to create group work. im on this path that still seems so unclear. and yet, there it is, continuously before me.
i went to see midsommar yesterday. with kate! what a dream! it was so hard to ask her if she wanted to go see it with me. but fuck, i am so glad i did. i read on social media that a couple folks i know were disappointed in the movie. but based on the directors previous film, hereditary and the previews for this one, i still had such high hopes. and i was not disappointed. it was fun to talk about it afterwards too.
the headwaters was broken into, vandalized and robbed last week. this is just after a rent increase with another to follow in the winter. tomorrow we are doing a space clearing ceremony in the theatre. my relationship to mizu and that space has changed so dramatically after our conversation this past spring. developing trust and building relationships...
this thursday will be my last appt. with lauren until november. feeling sad about that. and also curious where i will be in my life when we pick up again.