I have a speech.

[helen_damnation]

It came to me last night just as I was dropping off. Damn you, muse! It's Rodney's. I'm not sure what sparked it, but I assume John just corrected a mistake in Rodney's math or something. It goes like this:

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[helen_damnation]

Rodney I always think of as being bisexual/flexible and just not bringing it up because why bother? For all his talk he doesn't usually say that much, and given his clearance it's fair to say he's better at keeping a secret than one would assume, and he probably did a cost-benefit analysis and decided it wasn't worth it (because he doesn't think that John wants him, of course. If he figured he had a chance it'd be a different story.) That's what I usually think, anyway, but this plotbunny demanded straight(ish)!Rodney. I agree that he's playing it safe with women, though, because we all know John's the one he really wants.

Thanks for the song, it's perfect. John's POV, right?

Yeah, not that you mention it... I have seen a few like that, but given the size of the fandom, not that many. Most angst seem to be break-up/DADT related.

I think Mal/Jayne has the most basis in canon of the slash ships for that fandom, and I can see it, I just... don't ship it. Well, I kind of ship one-sided Jayne->Mal, but assuming that not something he angsts over a lot or that would get in the way of another relationship, especially with someone so completely different from Mal as Simon is.

The one I'm writing is a companion piece to one I wrote forever and a day ago. It's on my journal if you want to look.

[coffeestudies]

probably did a cost-benefit analysis and decided it wasn't worth it (because he doesn't think that John wants him, of course.
He so would do that!
Here's what I think: I don't think that Rodney thinks that John doesn't want him, because there are these moments. When they sit on John's bed (some of the candle's are lit), tinkering with their toy cars, John complains that Rodney created an extra setting that makes the cars really fast but also rather broken afterward and Rodney yells at him for painting his car with colors (but they secretly think that it's kinda cool to have a fast miniature car even if it breaks/that it's really a little bit pretty) and then they both reach for some tool or other and their hands touch and *bang* they look into each other's eyes and half a minute later they realize they still do. Then they start fussing about AND THEY NEVER TALK ABOUT IT.

I think what it would take for them to just do it would be a long heated conversation where Rodney yells the whole time how they really shouldn't because there so much that can go wrong and he yells because if he wouldn't he would lie in John's arms already and John says a whole lot of not much until he jumps up and says - just this side of sulky - "But if we want to what does anything else matter!"

So, yeah, that's what *I* think.

Thanks for the song, it's perfect. John's POV, right?
That's right! John's a riddle but Rodney cracked him a long time ago ;) And John's the secret variable that makes Rodney's equation work and his graphs rise. :D

Jayne is not the kind of guy who angst over anything much; no, I don't think that's what he does in his bunk.

edited because 'would' and 'wouldn't' have actually different meanings.

[helen_damnation]

I would read the hell out of that fic, just so you know.

They both really, really suck at that whole relationships thing, so I could see them being completely oblivious and pining for aaaages, but I could also see them deliberately ignoring it out of fear, because they do have so much to fear. Maybe a mix of both, or one after the other.