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This may be racist but I don't give a shit.
Dear Harang,
I'm starting to question my trust and friendship in you. Last year you could do no wrong in my eyes but finally, after this second year in College I've been able to open my eyes a little wider.
One thing I've been able to pick up on was the fact that you never let me know about YOU. Nothing about yourself at all. You never tell me what is bothering you and just tell me that "You're tired" when it's quite apparent that you're pissed off about something. First of all, that's not entirely fair. You always want to know what's bothering me and will even pry to figure it out. Granted, you want to help me but friendship is based on trust, and if I have to trust you with my problems and secrets then you should do the same. This is not one-sided and if you think it's going to stay then you've got another thing coming. Second of all, how do you plan do deal with your problems on your own? Whatever your strategies are they just make you seem like you're even more antisocial than ever and that makes EVERYONE cautious about how to approach you. It should never be like that.
Also, why is it that I'm always making you my priority? I've been so blind I've only now just realized that I'm only an option for you. Whenever you needed my help or advice I was ready to drop everything at a second's notice just for you but you on the other hand... were not so eager.
I'm tired of trying to please you. I'm tired of trying to be perfect for you. And I'm tired of walking on eggshells around you.
I don't want to be afraid to drink a little because you're going to lecture me when, in fact, you drink for the same exact reasons that I tried to. You're not my SISTER as much as you want to say that you are. You're my FRIEND and we are equals. I'm not going to listen to you anymore. I'm not going to be afraid of some ridiculous consequence from pissing you off. You are not my guardian. We're friends. We respect each other but NEVER try to tell me what to do. I've listened to your words a little too religiously. And for what? For nothing.
And now, it's summer vacation and you don't have a job but you're having the time of your life hanging out with apparently more important friends and drinking and spending money. The true life of an asian, huh? Maybe you're not so different than Soichi and Takuya after all. Maybe you're all just spoiled brats who know nothing of hard work and the worth of it. You all get what you want just by asking anyway. You've contacted me once last month and not at all this month yet. Finally, I see where your priorities lie. It's very disappointing for me and truthfully I was extremely hurt to find out that the reason you're not keeping in touch is because you'd rather party and drink. It makes me wish that I was into that stuff just so I could hang out with you more...
We shouldn't be friends. You'll only continue to hurt me like all the others because you're all the fucking same. You're taking my friendship for granted like they did. I'm not always going to be there for you this time.
Dear Harang,
I'm starting to question my trust and friendship in you. Last year you could do no wrong in my eyes but finally, after this second year in College I've been able to open my eyes a little wider.
One thing I've been able to pick up on was the fact that you never let me know about YOU. Nothing about yourself at all. You never tell me what is bothering you and just tell me that "You're tired" when it's quite apparent that you're pissed off about something. First of all, that's not entirely fair. You always want to know what's bothering me and will even pry to figure it out. Granted, you want to help me but friendship is based on trust, and if I have to trust you with my problems and secrets then you should do the same. This is not one-sided and if you think it's going to stay then you've got another thing coming. Second of all, how do you plan do deal with your problems on your own? Whatever your strategies are they just make you seem like you're even more antisocial than ever and that makes EVERYONE cautious about how to approach you. It should never be like that.
Also, why is it that I'm always making you my priority? I've been so blind I've only now just realized that I'm only an option for you. Whenever you needed my help or advice I was ready to drop everything at a second's notice just for you but you on the other hand... were not so eager.
I'm tired of trying to please you. I'm tired of trying to be perfect for you. And I'm tired of walking on eggshells around you.
I don't want to be afraid to drink a little because you're going to lecture me when, in fact, you drink for the same exact reasons that I tried to. You're not my SISTER as much as you want to say that you are. You're my FRIEND and we are equals. I'm not going to listen to you anymore. I'm not going to be afraid of some ridiculous consequence from pissing you off. You are not my guardian. We're friends. We respect each other but NEVER try to tell me what to do. I've listened to your words a little too religiously. And for what? For nothing.
And now, it's summer vacation and you don't have a job but you're having the time of your life hanging out with apparently more important friends and drinking and spending money. The true life of an asian, huh? Maybe you're not so different than Soichi and Takuya after all. Maybe you're all just spoiled brats who know nothing of hard work and the worth of it. You all get what you want just by asking anyway. You've contacted me once last month and not at all this month yet. Finally, I see where your priorities lie. It's very disappointing for me and truthfully I was extremely hurt to find out that the reason you're not keeping in touch is because you'd rather party and drink. It makes me wish that I was into that stuff just so I could hang out with you more...
We shouldn't be friends. You'll only continue to hurt me like all the others because you're all the fucking same. You're taking my friendship for granted like they did. I'm not always going to be there for you this time.