My freakin' education...

Sep 28, 2010 23:53


  I'm in the specialty in which don't understand a damn thing. I'm in this specialty, because my family ate me alive during the year, for my own choices. Prove me that I make a mistake. I'm such a fool to believe it!
  Three years, I am sorry about this. But do not dare quit because I feel sorry for the money that was spent on me (as has become clear, I'm on a commercial basis) and that is why I like the last idiot, care about that
my sisters and maman think. Really stupid! Like they are care about what I think or wish...
  I really want to go into the army. In fact, I already learned all that I required
for this. I'm just afraid: I don't want spat with them. But they will never support this decision of mine. The only way for me to leave - to hide it all until the last minute. But then, they cannot forgive me.
I'm tired to depend on them - it is time to cut funis. I want to do something that I want. But I don't want to lose my family - we are already not very smooth relationship.
Oh, goddammit! Why they just can not let me be?
What should I do?
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