Marzipan
Life is kindof hilarious
In a sickening, bitter way
My stomach turning
The world warming
Sweet boys with sexy smiles
And whispers in the dead of night
It's been a couple days
It's been a million years
Bet he was up all night
Drinking?
Laughing?
Wasting, wasting time?
AND I'M SO SORRY
and I don't want to take over your life
and your friends are important
and it's makes my stomach churn
to know I make you miss them.
My bedroom is delicious
Filled up with books
Aching at the seams
Latin is tasty
Like something too sweet
Eaten in small bites
(Marzipan.)
So I wonder what you're doing now
Asleep?
Wandering the world
aimlessly?
Working?
Am I missing an email you're writing?
Are you thinking of me?
Considering calling me?
Or is it nothing,
none of the above?
So here we go
Bliss mixed in with panic
But I'm having difficulty thinking of you
You're in my head now
But that means I don't
I don't
I don't remember why I love you
And it worries me
Because now that we're here
At this place
I know I'm just screwing up somehow
Having difficulty shifting
As everything changes around me
Or maybe I'm afraid?
I can't be sure these days
It's hard to know, one way
Or another
So I'm eating chocolate
More than I ought to
Graham crackers and ice cream
Thick and nutty and much too sweet
(Marzipan.)
Delicious.
So I miss you
But I'm not obsessed with you
So I can stand to be away from you
To wish you well and wander away
And what does that mean?
So I'm going to get fat
Just to prove that I can
And while I'm doing that
I'll try to finish Latin
And I'll get around to driving
When I'm done indulging in my room
And I'll get around to telling him
When I am less afraid
In a sickening, bitter way
My stomach turning
The world warming
Sweet boys with sexy smiles
And whispers in the dead of night
It's been a couple days
It's been a million years
Bet he was up all night
Drinking?
Laughing?
Wasting, wasting time?
AND I'M SO SORRY
and I don't want to take over your life
and your friends are important
and it's makes my stomach churn
to know I make you miss them.
My bedroom is delicious
Filled up with books
Aching at the seams
Latin is tasty
Like something too sweet
Eaten in small bites
(Marzipan.)
So I wonder what you're doing now
Asleep?
Wandering the world
aimlessly?
Working?
Am I missing an email you're writing?
Are you thinking of me?
Considering calling me?
Or is it nothing,
none of the above?
So here we go
Bliss mixed in with panic
But I'm having difficulty thinking of you
You're in my head now
But that means I don't
I don't
I don't remember why I love you
And it worries me
Because now that we're here
At this place
I know I'm just screwing up somehow
Having difficulty shifting
As everything changes around me
Or maybe I'm afraid?
I can't be sure these days
It's hard to know, one way
Or another
So I'm eating chocolate
More than I ought to
Graham crackers and ice cream
Thick and nutty and much too sweet
(Marzipan.)
Delicious.
So I miss you
But I'm not obsessed with you
So I can stand to be away from you
To wish you well and wander away
And what does that mean?
So I'm going to get fat
Just to prove that I can
And while I'm doing that
I'll try to finish Latin
And I'll get around to driving
When I'm done indulging in my room
And I'll get around to telling him
When I am less afraid