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People always think I'm up to something when I'm totally not.
Especially when I start talking to people whom I have a lot of tension between or who is on thin ice with me or the other way around.
I just do what I feel like doing.
I want people in my life, just because I can.
I don't want to hurt any body.
Give your brain a fucking rest I'm not up to anything.
Theres nothing for me to be up to. I just want you in my life. It may be for a good reason or it may be just.. because?
I may want someone in my life who fucked me over or who hates my guts.
Because.. just because. Sometimes I will have my reasons but I will never tell. .. Ever.
But I'm not up to squat.
I don't want in their lives to hurt them, even if they hurt me.
Maybe its the chemical imbalences in my brain?
I'm not sure.