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why do the right things always happen at the wrong times? it took me months to get rob to even acknowledge the fact that i said i wanted to move in with him. now we've got a place and are moving in in september. its all set. when i started my education major at lesley i wanted nothing more in the world than to be the english teacher at the RAI. Guess what. Today i was offered the posision of english teacher at the RAI. The only problem is that my apartment with rob is in boston and the RAI is on mv. i love the RAI, i love katherine (who runs the rai) and i love teaching. but i love rob too. this is so hard but ive made a promise to him. he didnt even want to get an apartment and now his name is on the lease. i cant live without rob so i guess ive made my decision to turn down the job. it really hurts though. i know i will be happy with rob. ill find a job in boston eventually (hopefuly teaching) and the RAI will still be there. Katherine was so disapointed when I told her I had to think on it. I've been begging for a job since i left the school over 4 years ago. the job hasnt been posted yet because she wanted to offer it to me first. i know i could make a lot of money and be successful at the RAI but i cant do that to rob and i cant do that to myself. i guess what im saying is if rob screws this up im going to need your help ruining his life. lol. not really. this is my decision. i know he would be upset if i backed out of our place but he would support my decision to make money and have a good career. i think thats why im choosing him. because he will support me no matter what. i need a fucking drink.