yay for 24hour law & order marathons.
why didn’t you just tell me i was an asshole? it would have saved a whole mess. i hurt people when i joke with and about them and don’t realize i hurt them because they don’t say anything. then they disappear because they don’t feel like being insulted by me and i sit in my room for several months crying because i have no friends. so, how am i the asshole? i was joking and didn’t realize i was hurting every single person i know because no one said anything. then every single person i know started hanging out with each other and not inviting me or in some cases asking me not to come. At least i wasn't deliberately hurting anyone. im more brutal when I publicly joke about myself then I am to you so I thought it was ok. I thought you knew I had a strange sense of humor and dealt with difficult situations and feelings with off-beat humor. you knew I was rotting alone in my bed and kept it that way. still, I am the asshole and now I have to pay for that. im sorry if I offended you. thats not what I meant to do. maybe I just shouldn’t joke anymore. I promise that if you invite me out ill sit quietly in the corner. just acknowledge me once in a while. help me know that im still alive. give me a reason to get out of these pajamas I’ve been wearing for weeks.
thank you to the brave person who brought this problem to my attention. the rest of you need to learn how to speak up.