Rough day
There are times in your life where the moment just stops, and everything petty that you've been concerned about flies out of your head and it doesn't matter anymore. That was what happened for me today. I'm at work freaking out about this and that, and my mom calls me crying and tells me that my Aunt Sandy, my Grandma's sister, was found dead in her apartment. I was only on the phone for a second, but it felt like an eternity. The fact was I had a customer and there was nothing I could do right then, but it just took my breath away. I went back to my customer and finished with them, and then I just sort of went like robot mode. I helped customer after customer, but my mind was not there at all, and my heart was just broken.
The hard thing with this is that she was getting better. She was diagnosed with cancer like march of 2004, but it was gone, she was on her way to better health, but apparently there was more none of us knew. It's just hard because things did not end on the happiest notes with her. She was a very bitter person, but deep down you knew she cared for you. She was like a second grandma, living next door, she could always tell you what was wrong. Like the time I broke my fingers and my mom wasn't sure, she brought us over to sandy, and asked for the diagnosis, this coming from my mom the nurse of 20 years to my aunt who had mothered 6 kids. She looked at my hand for a second, moved my fingers back as I winced, looked at my mom and said, yup, it's broken, she'll need to wear a splint for a month, and go figure she was absolutely 100% correct. She was a good person and a very strong woman. She could do unimaginable things just by putting her mind to it, and whether she knew it or not we all loved her. I will miss her so much now, it's going to be hard, because you never expect things to change so quickly. You always think you will get that chance to say goodbye, to say i love you, and to show how much you really care, but sometimes life doesn't give you that, and you have to hope that the person will hear you. So, on that note, I love every single one of my friends, no matter how annoyed I get over stupid things, I love you. Everyone be good to one another, because I need all the love I can get right now.
The hard thing with this is that she was getting better. She was diagnosed with cancer like march of 2004, but it was gone, she was on her way to better health, but apparently there was more none of us knew. It's just hard because things did not end on the happiest notes with her. She was a very bitter person, but deep down you knew she cared for you. She was like a second grandma, living next door, she could always tell you what was wrong. Like the time I broke my fingers and my mom wasn't sure, she brought us over to sandy, and asked for the diagnosis, this coming from my mom the nurse of 20 years to my aunt who had mothered 6 kids. She looked at my hand for a second, moved my fingers back as I winced, looked at my mom and said, yup, it's broken, she'll need to wear a splint for a month, and go figure she was absolutely 100% correct. She was a good person and a very strong woman. She could do unimaginable things just by putting her mind to it, and whether she knew it or not we all loved her. I will miss her so much now, it's going to be hard, because you never expect things to change so quickly. You always think you will get that chance to say goodbye, to say i love you, and to show how much you really care, but sometimes life doesn't give you that, and you have to hope that the person will hear you. So, on that note, I love every single one of my friends, no matter how annoyed I get over stupid things, I love you. Everyone be good to one another, because I need all the love I can get right now.