so there goes my life..
i feel like i'm just the person that people turn to when shit goes wrong. i've the only one out of my close friends who has been in a serious relationship, and who has had experience with certain things. other than when they need to ask me for some advice or whatever, i'm pretty much just an unncessary part of their life. it's sort of fucking ridiculous that they take me to be someone too stupid to notice.
i'd kill to somehow get a bunch of money, and just take off for a while. i wouldn't tell anyone. i'd just get up, and go. i'm so sick of being a pushover, and taking everyone's shit.
i'm sick of being so emotional. and having to be reassured by people that they care. i wish i could just know that. but, most people make me feel that they feel anything BUT care. i wish i knew who my real friends were. everytime i think i've found them, it fucks up.
i just need to fucking get away.