photogenic was one thing I never was
Oh, the pictures I mentioned... All were made with my wonderful friend gally_lingua 's digital camera (Thank you, honey) and much better than the most crap I can barely stand to see. I don't blame cameras or photographers - I'm quite resigned that I would never look striking, beautiful or some other shit, though I don't suffer from low self-esteem (in fact, I mange to draw as much pleasure from it as possible ;) ) and I can tell that I can be pretty, if someone would bother to do something with my hair, my skin and my general laziness about my appearance.
At the moment, I felt so weary that I feel like telling the world going to hell. Only I have a notion that it would be me visiting it, with German practice and conversation class tomorrow and I haven't even touch my pen. I want to wail, but it would be really selfish, I have to remind myself, as many people have it much worse and still don't complain.
Read an entry at scribblemouse's journal. For some reason, was overwhelmed by guilt, shame (as I never share stupid-&-sappy things I think up even with the paper, much less other people), sadness and vague anger at those who dare to treat authors without walking in their shoes a mile first...
http://pics.livejournal.com/heidi_mayer/gallery/00012sxs
[edit] I don't the energy to post it right here...Pocket PC won't be noticed be the computer, so I can even post later entries...
At the moment, I felt so weary that I feel like telling the world going to hell. Only I have a notion that it would be me visiting it, with German practice and conversation class tomorrow and I haven't even touch my pen. I want to wail, but it would be really selfish, I have to remind myself, as many people have it much worse and still don't complain.
Read an entry at scribblemouse's journal. For some reason, was overwhelmed by guilt, shame (as I never share stupid-&-sappy things I think up even with the paper, much less other people), sadness and vague anger at those who dare to treat authors without walking in their shoes a mile first...
http://pics.livejournal.com/heidi_mayer/gallery/00012sxs
[edit] I don't the energy to post it right here...Pocket PC won't be noticed be the computer, so I can even post later entries...