It only gets harder the more that you know...
Well...I know that I should be reading for class or brushing my teeth or something, but I feel that this entry is a bit more important. I was just talking to my sister, Heather, and I realized and had a lot of thoughts confirmed for me. So...here goes....
Some people like to dwell on things...this creates problems. Sometimes in life, you are just friends with people for convenience and yes that is sad, but it happens a lot. So, when you get older and some people stay immature and want to not worry about things and not realize that this is life, not just a game, people realize who they are. I feel I am at a stage in my life that may be beyond some of the people I know's stages. Whether people want to admit it or not, some people have problems that are worse than others...everyone comes from a different place, and it is all in the way that you interpret your own problems. When outsiders can tell you that you have it a lot worse than most, you have to accept that and not try to hide your problems where people cannot see them. Either way...so people need to grow up. In growing up, you realize that sometimes you just have to drop the baggage that you have acquired and start fresh...I think I'm about there right now. We all realize who we are, even if we don't realize it at first. The most important part of life is the relationships you form with other people, and so if those relationships hurt you or aren't working, just drop them. Nothing should make you feel bad about yourself to the point where you start to change who you are for these people. You must be true to yourself, even if that means starting over, or losing those close to you. It hurts right now and I'm a bit lonely, but here is something that Heather said about how she sees it, "I'm sitting here with these strangers pretending to be my friends while I feel that my true friends are only strangers." I see that as very true. Those who care about me and that I care about have gotten away and I don't know them as I used to. Those who I know, don't seem to be that important to me. I'm done pretending to be something I'm not. So...if you have any insight...leave it. I just have realized that its not about the amount of friends or where they live, but the quality. I know that I have some really good friends, even if I don't see them often(2 years Paige!!!) or they aren't at the same school or something like that. Well...back to homework...maybe some more insight will hit me later but for now I'm all out!!!
Some people like to dwell on things...this creates problems. Sometimes in life, you are just friends with people for convenience and yes that is sad, but it happens a lot. So, when you get older and some people stay immature and want to not worry about things and not realize that this is life, not just a game, people realize who they are. I feel I am at a stage in my life that may be beyond some of the people I know's stages. Whether people want to admit it or not, some people have problems that are worse than others...everyone comes from a different place, and it is all in the way that you interpret your own problems. When outsiders can tell you that you have it a lot worse than most, you have to accept that and not try to hide your problems where people cannot see them. Either way...so people need to grow up. In growing up, you realize that sometimes you just have to drop the baggage that you have acquired and start fresh...I think I'm about there right now. We all realize who we are, even if we don't realize it at first. The most important part of life is the relationships you form with other people, and so if those relationships hurt you or aren't working, just drop them. Nothing should make you feel bad about yourself to the point where you start to change who you are for these people. You must be true to yourself, even if that means starting over, or losing those close to you. It hurts right now and I'm a bit lonely, but here is something that Heather said about how she sees it, "I'm sitting here with these strangers pretending to be my friends while I feel that my true friends are only strangers." I see that as very true. Those who care about me and that I care about have gotten away and I don't know them as I used to. Those who I know, don't seem to be that important to me. I'm done pretending to be something I'm not. So...if you have any insight...leave it. I just have realized that its not about the amount of friends or where they live, but the quality. I know that I have some really good friends, even if I don't see them often(2 years Paige!!!) or they aren't at the same school or something like that. Well...back to homework...maybe some more insight will hit me later but for now I'm all out!!!