The weekend and Depression
So this past weekend was really tough on me. It's now officially been 10 days since I quit drinking. My buddy Ray and 2 of his very southern buddies from his home town came on over and it was us four and my buddy jeff. They were all drinknig blah blah and I jsut had to watch and chill. It was pretty rough with it all in front of me and me chillin drinking an orange juice box. Than we went to clubs on thursday and friday nights, the hardest part. I had very little ffun cause we went to my frats hang out place for the clubs plus I was sober. It was a very stressful time being the first time I had ever been there sober. It's a different place.
The freinds I met down here are great. It jsut turns out that most of them are guys which sux. The guys on my floor are really cool guys, but they just arent the normal peopel I'd hang out with back home. There are too many different personalities I would never even try and get to know back home because of their arrogance ect ect so it's real weird being here. There have been lots of girls I've hung out with and made out with, but that's jsut not what I really want or wanted. I jsut realized this. There have been 2 really good girls I could have soemthing with or at leats ebcome really good friends with down here that remind me of the LOCO or Dorf or cleary back home, This beautiful girl named amanda rom gettysburg who is simply amazing and I love hanging out with her. The other is this girl melissa. I had a lot of fun with ehr at the begginning of the school year, but we havent talked much since which really sux. I miss my girls at home so much though. Like you ladies jsut could do nothing wrong in my eyes and I miss you all so much. I jsut dont feel I can hang out or become really close with these types of girls down here except a random hookup which isn't want I want. I jsut can't wait to be home again
The freinds I met down here are great. It jsut turns out that most of them are guys which sux. The guys on my floor are really cool guys, but they just arent the normal peopel I'd hang out with back home. There are too many different personalities I would never even try and get to know back home because of their arrogance ect ect so it's real weird being here. There have been lots of girls I've hung out with and made out with, but that's jsut not what I really want or wanted. I jsut realized this. There have been 2 really good girls I could have soemthing with or at leats ebcome really good friends with down here that remind me of the LOCO or Dorf or cleary back home, This beautiful girl named amanda rom gettysburg who is simply amazing and I love hanging out with her. The other is this girl melissa. I had a lot of fun with ehr at the begginning of the school year, but we havent talked much since which really sux. I miss my girls at home so much though. Like you ladies jsut could do nothing wrong in my eyes and I miss you all so much. I jsut dont feel I can hang out or become really close with these types of girls down here except a random hookup which isn't want I want. I jsut can't wait to be home again