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do you ever start thinking about, like anything thats going on in your life, anything at all, good or bad, and literally just experience pain inside? like you literally hurt? if you're happy with things, you hurt because youc ant believe how happy you are and you just cant figure out how you deserve to be so happy. and if you're not happy, then that painful sense of longing, like maybe something is within your grasp but you cant or dont want to or cant bring yourself to reach out and grab it. or maybe its both. that you had an amazing day but theres some hidden darkness to the whole situation so even though you are happy you know it is useless, so you hurt anyway. its like all your muscles are trying to collapse in on themselves, all your insides. like you would do anything within your power to change, or figure things out, or understand, but the strain is completely useless.
hmm. well that wasnt intended to be some dark, teenage finding ones place in life, cliche entry. but hey i hear voices at night which other people clearly do not, so i figured i might be alone on this one too. thus the term cliche could not be applied and i guess it wouldnt, then, be a typical teenage cry for help.
but seriously
hmm. well that wasnt intended to be some dark, teenage finding ones place in life, cliche entry. but hey i hear voices at night which other people clearly do not, so i figured i might be alone on this one too. thus the term cliche could not be applied and i guess it wouldnt, then, be a typical teenage cry for help.
but seriously