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[heff_goth_cow]

I like to start sentences with letter(s) word(s) that is bad for gramma.
hahah fuck'n english aye, Iz b Spellink shit rong just to piss peeple of.

Been in band number....what now!? i think 7 or 8 now, still not happy, pffft.
Heff! now happy? wtf. going by his last journals he seemed ok, yeah fuck'n right.
when is anyone happy, dont answer that one.

drunk/druged/distroyed. i always find something.
like FUCK. i get in this state every few months where i get depressed and all i
ever want is to BE more depressed, and when i get over it its like "pffft, fuck off!"
I get drunk and i turn into what i WANT to be, a yabbering dickhead that makes everyone
laugh, i get stoned i just sit there doing fuck all, i get munted and somehow i
understand the universe, ect ect ect as i go down the list.

i've been doing this same old shit for as long as anyone has known me, as long as
I've known me, pissing of a few, disapearing for years only to bump into in a
wasted state somewhere in the middle of no-where.

i dunno, bt then maybe i do.

i feel like i'm on a loop, where my body ages, but my mind is stuck.

Alone i'm not happy cause im not with somebody.
With somebody im not happy cause im not alone.

Fuck off!

But come back.