yeeeeea....about that.........?
yea i know i haven't been writing in here much lately. everything is jus so crazy anymore with work and school and all my thoughts leading back to Tim...i donno everything is jus still messed up. yea were friends, but i'm jus gonna let everything play itself out. i might go out this weekend and have some fun to get my mind off things maybe that would help...who knows! My pages will fill with his words much faster than he may ever know. its like every time i find somethin good and it goes great....but when i'm alone it fall to pieces. and that is exactly what happend once again. i'm worried about myself and what i might do this weekend and what i might do in general. i try so hard to please one peorson what i go along with whatever they want and whatever they feel and i end up forgetting what i feel and what i want and what i need and what is best for me. i jus dont even know what to do anymore about my feelings. i want to be single and have a good time and do what i want with out haveing any thoughts about if i'm doing somethin wrong....but i want to have someone there with me through it all, to tell me that it will be ok and to help me. i want to be able to feel him with me and have him to fall into when the day is over and i'm redy to give up.