Always. and never.
i havent really been writing in here, because i lack the enthusiasm to write my latest troubles.
1. my girlfriend. shes young. almost to young. 17 to be exact. at times she can show how mature she is for her age, but every once in a while the immaturity of a highschool girl shows and its just hard trying to sustain a serious relationship with her.
2. Finances. Jesus, i'm in debt? really? damnit. about 15k in debt is a good estimate, that i'll be paying off for quite a while. i'm getting screwed by just about everyone and thing i put a lil money into. it sucks.
3. my Future. oh golly, what am i going to do with my life? my family is kinda pushing me into something i'm not to excited about. Computer data and Administration. yeah, sounds like a blast.. sure it pays a butt load, but damn.. do i really wanna be doing that for the next.. 40 years? i'm not completely ruling that out, but its an option.. now that i'm back in a kitchen at bostons, i realise how much i like it. i dont really wanna be a 40 year old line cook making 10-15 bucks an hour, but maybe culinary school and possibly my own restaurant?? i dont know.. thats a huge step to just decide i wanna go to culinary school.
thats basically whats been on my mind for the past 3 months since really writing in this thing.
April 21st. Circa Survive at the Roseland Theatre. i'm going. DUH
1. my girlfriend. shes young. almost to young. 17 to be exact. at times she can show how mature she is for her age, but every once in a while the immaturity of a highschool girl shows and its just hard trying to sustain a serious relationship with her.
2. Finances. Jesus, i'm in debt? really? damnit. about 15k in debt is a good estimate, that i'll be paying off for quite a while. i'm getting screwed by just about everyone and thing i put a lil money into. it sucks.
3. my Future. oh golly, what am i going to do with my life? my family is kinda pushing me into something i'm not to excited about. Computer data and Administration. yeah, sounds like a blast.. sure it pays a butt load, but damn.. do i really wanna be doing that for the next.. 40 years? i'm not completely ruling that out, but its an option.. now that i'm back in a kitchen at bostons, i realise how much i like it. i dont really wanna be a 40 year old line cook making 10-15 bucks an hour, but maybe culinary school and possibly my own restaurant?? i dont know.. thats a huge step to just decide i wanna go to culinary school.
thats basically whats been on my mind for the past 3 months since really writing in this thing.
April 21st. Circa Survive at the Roseland Theatre. i'm going. DUH