Missing you :(
Inside my heart there's a whirlpool of uncertainty and sadness... i wonder what causes it.
I don't feel good about myself.
I kinda hate my life. Bcoz it's boring. Bcoz i don't have someone to share my interest, spill my heart out, care about me and have fun with.
Sometimes i love my life, sometimes i don't. It's a part of being a human, i guess.
Yeah, i'm fickle like that.
I always put a mask in my face.
I seldom show people how lonely and sad i am.
It's a part of my facade.
bcoz of that, i always suffer alone. Sometimes i spent my time, gazing over nothing and cry for unknown reason.
Maybe it's loneliness, but i never wanted to accept it.
Sometimes.......
I wonder. Will i ever reach my dreams?
I wonder, how my life will turn out to be?
I wonder what 2010 and beyond will lead me to.
I miss Japan. I want to go there again :(
I wonder, will i ever step my feet there again?
will i?
It's been nearly 1 year and 2 months i've been there.
Looking at the Japan trip pictures gives me a swept of sadness. The memories keep rushing back. The good times spent there. I love the feeling. I wonder whether i will feel that again. The anticipation and discovering a new place. I miss that. I miss JAPAN !!
Luckily, the mp3 of Hey!Say!Jump's Romeo&Juliet performance in Shounen Club helps lift up my mood a bit.