idle
the worst thing you can do to yourself and your brain, and your friends and relatives and this and that, is to get a computer job. it's fucking me up. i'm hating life more everyday.
everytime i start working on something (here at the office), and i feel busy and productive and getting things done, sort of enjoying it even though it's not my favorite job, someone shows up with some stupid idiotic problem that he pulled out of his poopy butt, throws his shit on my face, fucks my focus up. that's when i am back to where i started. then i get frustrated, and i don't wanna do what i have to do, i don't wanna do what i was already doing.
that's when i start staring at the screen, pointless. watch the hours pass by second by second. that is the time i realize that you can actually have a lot of time. i always have complained about not having enough time to do everything i wanted. but actually, if you can make your life boring and not want shit at all, then there's sooo much time that you can't even spend, it just doesn't go by.
this looks like it'll be another day i have soo much time to do nothing. it actually sucks to have so much time to do nothing while there's so much to do and not enough time to do all that. go figure...
everytime i start working on something (here at the office), and i feel busy and productive and getting things done, sort of enjoying it even though it's not my favorite job, someone shows up with some stupid idiotic problem that he pulled out of his poopy butt, throws his shit on my face, fucks my focus up. that's when i am back to where i started. then i get frustrated, and i don't wanna do what i have to do, i don't wanna do what i was already doing.
that's when i start staring at the screen, pointless. watch the hours pass by second by second. that is the time i realize that you can actually have a lot of time. i always have complained about not having enough time to do everything i wanted. but actually, if you can make your life boring and not want shit at all, then there's sooo much time that you can't even spend, it just doesn't go by.
this looks like it'll be another day i have soo much time to do nothing. it actually sucks to have so much time to do nothing while there's so much to do and not enough time to do all that. go figure...