Fucking Pissed - My Newest Poem (please leave comments about what you think)
i am fucking pissed off and im done trying to sugar coat bullshit thats not me i say what i want when i want, and im tired of holding all this shit in.
i cant fucking sleep at night because i get so fucking angry about all this bullshit between us. im pissed off that you met some fucking loser four years ago that your family loves so you are too scared to leave because you might hurt him. im pissed off that you act like you are already married, im pissed off that he is 5'6." im pissed off that he has called my friends to talk shit because he thinks he is tough, im pissed off that the only time ive heard the fuckers voice he was laughing at me, im pissed off that he has a girls name, im pissed off that i have not seen him in person yet so i can just laugh my ass off at him even though i dont know him, fuck it i dont want to know him at all, im pissed off that you think he is cool, im pissed off that i play the guitar because he does, im pissed off that i know he plays the guitar, im pissed off that you try to keep everything a big fucking secret and try to hide me the best you can, yeah the best deceptions go to you, im pissed off that you are scared to be around me, im pissed off that you make small talk with me, im pissed off that im not good enough for you, im pissed off that you never gave us a chance, im pissed off that you didnt tell him sooner, im pissed off that your brother thinks hes a bad ass, im pissed off that i didnt hit him but instead shoke his hand like he understood what i was going through, im pissed off that he acted like he understood, im pissed off that he called me trash, im pissed off that i cant hold you at night, im pissed of that i have this lonely feeling that wont go away, im pissed off that i have a hard time breathing cause it fucking hurts, im pissed off that i think about you so much, im pissed off that i dont believe in god, im pissed off that every fucking depressing song ive heard and could probably sing you all the lyrics from, im pissed off that i have lyrics for 'the ataris' 'a new found glory' 'alkaline trio' and 'coldplay' bookmarked, im pissed off that i think before i put up away messages, im pissed off that all my away messages are generally directed towards you, im pissed off that vupd is reading all my fucking live journal entries so im suppose to not say what im pissed about, im pissed off they know what a fucking live journal is, im pissed off that im sitting here nake typing this at 1:30 in the fucking morning, im pissed off that i never sleep, im pissed off that i used to have all the answers, im pissed off that im considered a role model for kids in the comunity, im pissed off that im pre-med, im pissed off that i actually have to study, im pissed off you didnt give me your organic notes, im pissed off that i have your cell phone number, im pissed off that i want to call you all the time, im pissed off that i miss your voice, im pissed off that i go places without you, im pissed off that i miss you, im pissed off that you go home every weekend or he comes up here, im pissed off that i havent danced with you yet, im pissed off that i hear your voice in my head at night, im pissed off that you hear my voice some mornings when i wish you never fucking hear me talk, im pissed off that you only say things to me when youre drunk, a drunk tongue speaks a sober mine im pissed off that someone said that once, im pissed off that you are too chicken shit to live your own life how you want to live it, im pissed off that i met you, im pissed off that i was fine on my own till i met you, im pissed of that ive cried in front of you, im pissed off that i still cry, im pissed off that i know the lyrics to 'adam's song' 'see you soon' and 'trouble breathing' three of the most suicidal songs i know, im pissed off that everytime i stop typing this i keep adding shit to it, im pissed off that youll probably get half way and then stop reading this, im pissed of that im not perfect, im pissed off that i am aging, im pissed off that i have the periodic table memeorized, im pissed off about so many things, im pissed off that i doubt shit, im pissed off that your eyes tell me one story and you try to act out another, im pissed off that your family has never meet me to be like wow you finally brought home something that was worth looking at, im pissed off that i do stupid shit for you, im pissed off that i started writing poetry, im pissed off that i still write poetry, im pissed off that i dont listen to as much rap as i used to, im pissed off that i could tell you sigur ros's newest fucking cd, im pissed off that i own that cd and it is some of the most depressing shit ive ever heard, im pissed off that everytime i listen to dashboard confessional its like fucking chris carbarra is talking to me personally cause he feels the shit im talking about, im pissed off that i dont drive as fast anymore, im pissed off that im probably going to die of cancer, im pissed off that i feel like the first time in my life something i went after i failed at, im pissed off that supp has a girlfriend, im pissed off that matt has a girlfriend, im pissed off that ben has a girlfriend, im pissed off that derrick has a girlfriend, im pissed off that i dont jackoff anymore, im pissed off that you know who michael mcdermott is, im pissed off that i shared michael mcdermott with you, im pissed off 'that id like to say im over it but it seems that isnt so,' im pissed off that i grew attached, im pissed off that i feel in love, im pissed off that i told her that, im pissed off that i let her meet my family and workout with me, im pissed off that you cant sleep at night, im pissed off that you are upset, im pissed off that i still fucking care about you, im pissed the fuck off period, im pissed off that i read more than i used too, im pissed off that i read the rapture of canaan, im pissed off that i thought that book was actually good and i kind of liked it, im pissed off that i never got to do half the shit i wanted to do with you, im pissed off that i fucking dont know if you give a fuck anymore, im pissed off that i sit alone in my room everynight and just get more pissed, im pissed off that i hide everything with a smile, im pissed off that im always at war inside of myself, im pissed off that i keep a diary, im pissed off that gas prices are so high, im pissed off that somewhere along the line i majorally fucked up, im pissed off that i hear 'its me and not you,' im pissed off that people say shit like that, im pissed off that i was mean to ugly girls growing up, im pissed off that i used to not be good with feelings, im pissed off that i treated kelley like the biggest bastard i know now shes one of my best friends and she actually cared for me and about me, im pissed off that i fall for girls with the first letter of k in their names, im pissed off that i fucking failed somewhere along the lines, im pissed off that my e is accented in my name, im pissed off that your right next to me but not here at all, im pissed off that i havent seen a movie with you forever, im pissed off that i havent seen the way a candle lights your face in a long time, im pissed off that everything went wrong, im pissed off that i think everything might never have gone right, im pissed off that i dont know what to do anymore, im pissed off cause i dont think there is anything more i can do, im pissed off that you never told me how you fealt about me or for me, im pissed off that your birthday is four days after mine, im pissed off that i have to see you in the morning knowing i cant see you that night, im pissed off that youre going to be pissed off when you read this, im pissed off that i dont know if you do read these or not, maybe i do have a fucking anger problem, i call what i just wrote fucking poetry, whatever fuck it all with whip cream on top, im done sugar coating bullshit.
i cant fucking sleep at night because i get so fucking angry about all this bullshit between us. im pissed off that you met some fucking loser four years ago that your family loves so you are too scared to leave because you might hurt him. im pissed off that you act like you are already married, im pissed off that he is 5'6." im pissed off that he has called my friends to talk shit because he thinks he is tough, im pissed off that the only time ive heard the fuckers voice he was laughing at me, im pissed off that he has a girls name, im pissed off that i have not seen him in person yet so i can just laugh my ass off at him even though i dont know him, fuck it i dont want to know him at all, im pissed off that you think he is cool, im pissed off that i play the guitar because he does, im pissed off that i know he plays the guitar, im pissed off that you try to keep everything a big fucking secret and try to hide me the best you can, yeah the best deceptions go to you, im pissed off that you are scared to be around me, im pissed off that you make small talk with me, im pissed off that im not good enough for you, im pissed off that you never gave us a chance, im pissed off that you didnt tell him sooner, im pissed off that your brother thinks hes a bad ass, im pissed off that i didnt hit him but instead shoke his hand like he understood what i was going through, im pissed off that he acted like he understood, im pissed off that he called me trash, im pissed off that i cant hold you at night, im pissed of that i have this lonely feeling that wont go away, im pissed off that i have a hard time breathing cause it fucking hurts, im pissed off that i think about you so much, im pissed off that i dont believe in god, im pissed off that every fucking depressing song ive heard and could probably sing you all the lyrics from, im pissed off that i have lyrics for 'the ataris' 'a new found glory' 'alkaline trio' and 'coldplay' bookmarked, im pissed off that i think before i put up away messages, im pissed off that all my away messages are generally directed towards you, im pissed off that vupd is reading all my fucking live journal entries so im suppose to not say what im pissed about, im pissed off they know what a fucking live journal is, im pissed off that im sitting here nake typing this at 1:30 in the fucking morning, im pissed off that i never sleep, im pissed off that i used to have all the answers, im pissed off that im considered a role model for kids in the comunity, im pissed off that im pre-med, im pissed off that i actually have to study, im pissed off you didnt give me your organic notes, im pissed off that i have your cell phone number, im pissed off that i want to call you all the time, im pissed off that i miss your voice, im pissed off that i go places without you, im pissed off that i miss you, im pissed off that you go home every weekend or he comes up here, im pissed off that i havent danced with you yet, im pissed off that i hear your voice in my head at night, im pissed off that you hear my voice some mornings when i wish you never fucking hear me talk, im pissed off that you only say things to me when youre drunk, a drunk tongue speaks a sober mine im pissed off that someone said that once, im pissed off that you are too chicken shit to live your own life how you want to live it, im pissed off that i met you, im pissed off that i was fine on my own till i met you, im pissed of that ive cried in front of you, im pissed off that i still cry, im pissed off that i know the lyrics to 'adam's song' 'see you soon' and 'trouble breathing' three of the most suicidal songs i know, im pissed off that everytime i stop typing this i keep adding shit to it, im pissed off that youll probably get half way and then stop reading this, im pissed of that im not perfect, im pissed off that i am aging, im pissed off that i have the periodic table memeorized, im pissed off about so many things, im pissed off that i doubt shit, im pissed off that your eyes tell me one story and you try to act out another, im pissed off that your family has never meet me to be like wow you finally brought home something that was worth looking at, im pissed off that i do stupid shit for you, im pissed off that i started writing poetry, im pissed off that i still write poetry, im pissed off that i dont listen to as much rap as i used to, im pissed off that i could tell you sigur ros's newest fucking cd, im pissed off that i own that cd and it is some of the most depressing shit ive ever heard, im pissed off that everytime i listen to dashboard confessional its like fucking chris carbarra is talking to me personally cause he feels the shit im talking about, im pissed off that i dont drive as fast anymore, im pissed off that im probably going to die of cancer, im pissed off that i feel like the first time in my life something i went after i failed at, im pissed off that supp has a girlfriend, im pissed off that matt has a girlfriend, im pissed off that ben has a girlfriend, im pissed off that derrick has a girlfriend, im pissed off that i dont jackoff anymore, im pissed off that you know who michael mcdermott is, im pissed off that i shared michael mcdermott with you, im pissed off 'that id like to say im over it but it seems that isnt so,' im pissed off that i grew attached, im pissed off that i feel in love, im pissed off that i told her that, im pissed off that i let her meet my family and workout with me, im pissed off that you cant sleep at night, im pissed off that you are upset, im pissed off that i still fucking care about you, im pissed the fuck off period, im pissed off that i read more than i used too, im pissed off that i read the rapture of canaan, im pissed off that i thought that book was actually good and i kind of liked it, im pissed off that i never got to do half the shit i wanted to do with you, im pissed off that i fucking dont know if you give a fuck anymore, im pissed off that i sit alone in my room everynight and just get more pissed, im pissed off that i hide everything with a smile, im pissed off that im always at war inside of myself, im pissed off that i keep a diary, im pissed off that gas prices are so high, im pissed off that somewhere along the line i majorally fucked up, im pissed off that i hear 'its me and not you,' im pissed off that people say shit like that, im pissed off that i was mean to ugly girls growing up, im pissed off that i used to not be good with feelings, im pissed off that i treated kelley like the biggest bastard i know now shes one of my best friends and she actually cared for me and about me, im pissed off that i fall for girls with the first letter of k in their names, im pissed off that i fucking failed somewhere along the lines, im pissed off that my e is accented in my name, im pissed off that your right next to me but not here at all, im pissed off that i havent seen a movie with you forever, im pissed off that i havent seen the way a candle lights your face in a long time, im pissed off that everything went wrong, im pissed off that i think everything might never have gone right, im pissed off that i dont know what to do anymore, im pissed off cause i dont think there is anything more i can do, im pissed off that you never told me how you fealt about me or for me, im pissed off that your birthday is four days after mine, im pissed off that i have to see you in the morning knowing i cant see you that night, im pissed off that youre going to be pissed off when you read this, im pissed off that i dont know if you do read these or not, maybe i do have a fucking anger problem, i call what i just wrote fucking poetry, whatever fuck it all with whip cream on top, im done sugar coating bullshit.