thinking about tomorrow, today, and 5 years from now
i was looking in the mirror today, and i became transfixed. i saw a relection that i didnt like. i dont know who i am, if doubt is the key to knowledge i feel lost, i doubt everything. i doubted whether or not if i ripped out one of my earrings if my fucking ear would come off with it. stop hearing voices. yeah that would be great. i wouldnt have to hear your voice of treason. hello there the angel from my nightmare. then i got to thinking more. what if the death fairy came to me tonight? where would i go? i dont believe in much outside of myself and my friends, and a few other random people and random houses on random streets. i was just wondering and my thoughts drifted, i became hullciginatic. i want to start a craze, i want to do something that everyone talks about, i just cant think of anything that doesnt carry 5 to life. i stared deeper into the coffee, was the blackness talking to me? 'there was this burning like theres always been.' i talked to my waitress but she didnt want to talk back. she just gave me the bill and said its time to leave. so i left. left it all behind. im bound for greatness. its going to happen. i just dont know when. theres things i would like to do to you that you dont believe in. i was just wondering.....................if carl would even care. i dont even think he would find out. it all faded to black anyways. the random ranting, the poems, the riddles, everything always goes to black, just like the coffee. this crucifix is my fourleaf clover. valparaiso, indiana is evil. our town colors should be black and white. where did kelley green come from? i hate names that start with k. the reflection was talking to me, but if i pulled of one of my earring would i be able to hear what it was saying? i dont even know if i would listen. and i know that youre a sucker for anything acoustic.