Overthinking is my middle name.
If i could bottle up the sea breeze, i would take it over to your house and pour it loose through the garden...so the hinges on your windows would rust and colour like the boats pulled up on the sand for the Summer...
oh Josh Pyke is a lyrical genius. The power of words... I love how just hearing the right combination of words in the right order can make you feel emotions that bring you back to certain memories or even just mini moment fantasies that you never would have even thought of.
This week has been better than the last. But if I retold what happened at the end of last week, you could probably see that any week would be better! Lets just say that it consisted of a lot of tears, mis-understandings and a lack of co-operation. I have since relaxed alot more and I have somehow managed to make sure I've got my thoughts of "worry" under control and have just sat back a lot more, trying to just let things be, see how things roll and pan out. Sometimes if in doubt, that is one of the best things to do... right?
I can't help that I am a curious person who asks many things when I am unsure or generally interested in just knowing. I tend to overthink and what's worse is that I know it. When you know you do something like that or morseo involuntarily do something like that, it's extremely frustrating to know that you can't really change it. How can you stop yourself from overthinking about something? Thoughts are just there... and they always will be. There are ways of course to minimise it or different approaches as I have already mentioned, such as relaxing more and just letting things be.. but sometimes you can't control it.
Overthinking has put me in a negative light, seeing negative things and just well.. being a lot more negative. As bad as it is, I think many people tend to set themselves up for negative outcomes in the hopes of "softening the blow", making sure it won't "hurt as much" when the negative outcome actually occurs. I do that. I know my mum does that. I know my sister does that too. Maybe it's just in my family? But i think alot of people would think that. What's worse is I know that it's not a good thing to do. Being positive and then being let down is SO MUCH BETTER than being negative and then being let down.... i think it's better to be Optimistic. Harder to do.. but better. Because as "OK" you may think you feel if you were negative and then let down... you would feel EFFING FANTASTIC if you were optimistic and weren't let down. It boosts your morale completely. If you're let down, you just pick yourself back up again and work on having a tougher shield. It's how you get strong emotionally. You need to develop this strength in order to defeat the negative side of all things. So it's like.. why can I think these things but then still feel negative?
I don't know. I can see the problem, but I can't seem to fix it. I'm trying.. but sometimes I'll just overthink. I'm learning that I'll have to just deal with that and find a way to just subdue the thoughts into something not so important.
I still see that this does not make any sense to those who read and not know the complete story. But that is ok. I'm still sharing my thoughts and that's what I need to do to get it out of my system. It helps :)
Whether I can get myself out of this spot is not a question anymore. I can do it. I just need time and more answers. I'm going to get myself out of this rut and I'm going to be awesome at doing it!
Easter weekend coming up! :)
Over.
oh Josh Pyke is a lyrical genius. The power of words... I love how just hearing the right combination of words in the right order can make you feel emotions that bring you back to certain memories or even just mini moment fantasies that you never would have even thought of.
This week has been better than the last. But if I retold what happened at the end of last week, you could probably see that any week would be better! Lets just say that it consisted of a lot of tears, mis-understandings and a lack of co-operation. I have since relaxed alot more and I have somehow managed to make sure I've got my thoughts of "worry" under control and have just sat back a lot more, trying to just let things be, see how things roll and pan out. Sometimes if in doubt, that is one of the best things to do... right?
I can't help that I am a curious person who asks many things when I am unsure or generally interested in just knowing. I tend to overthink and what's worse is that I know it. When you know you do something like that or morseo involuntarily do something like that, it's extremely frustrating to know that you can't really change it. How can you stop yourself from overthinking about something? Thoughts are just there... and they always will be. There are ways of course to minimise it or different approaches as I have already mentioned, such as relaxing more and just letting things be.. but sometimes you can't control it.
Overthinking has put me in a negative light, seeing negative things and just well.. being a lot more negative. As bad as it is, I think many people tend to set themselves up for negative outcomes in the hopes of "softening the blow", making sure it won't "hurt as much" when the negative outcome actually occurs. I do that. I know my mum does that. I know my sister does that too. Maybe it's just in my family? But i think alot of people would think that. What's worse is I know that it's not a good thing to do. Being positive and then being let down is SO MUCH BETTER than being negative and then being let down.... i think it's better to be Optimistic. Harder to do.. but better. Because as "OK" you may think you feel if you were negative and then let down... you would feel EFFING FANTASTIC if you were optimistic and weren't let down. It boosts your morale completely. If you're let down, you just pick yourself back up again and work on having a tougher shield. It's how you get strong emotionally. You need to develop this strength in order to defeat the negative side of all things. So it's like.. why can I think these things but then still feel negative?
I don't know. I can see the problem, but I can't seem to fix it. I'm trying.. but sometimes I'll just overthink. I'm learning that I'll have to just deal with that and find a way to just subdue the thoughts into something not so important.
I still see that this does not make any sense to those who read and not know the complete story. But that is ok. I'm still sharing my thoughts and that's what I need to do to get it out of my system. It helps :)
Whether I can get myself out of this spot is not a question anymore. I can do it. I just need time and more answers. I'm going to get myself out of this rut and I'm going to be awesome at doing it!
Easter weekend coming up! :)
Over.