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Well life has taken a turn.
I slapped Adam. Ooooh I slapped him HARD. Granted I wasn't "thinking clearly" and yes, HE DID provoke me and hit me back..but I did slap him and I feel HORRIBLE about it. I was sobbing and he was cussing at me to get out and then well...to say the least I begged him to forgive me but then we got into another fight. At this point I'm thinking, "We're over, I hate this, it's NOT worth it" and I tell him this and generally if I mention something absurd like that he'll say "Oh Leslie, hush, you don't mean that, you're looking for a reaction" (Totally true and TOTALLY irritating) but this time he looked at me and said "Baby, I love you but if that's what you want then fine". I love him. Just when I want to choke him I love him more and more. He's patient with my bullshit. To say the least, we're still together and BETTER THAN EVER! haha.
Softball=whatever. Good, fine, challenging, hard, whatever whatever,...blah blah. I quit catching. I HATE IT and I think it makes my legs look bulky. Ha, seriously though, my muscles get stronger during season and I get man legs. So, now I'm playing third but my bats suck big hairy ....well yeah. It's frustrating.
School is fine. Doing better than I expected. Next semester I'm loading up the classes so that I can hopefully graduate a year early (if not that, then a semester early). This summer...I'm in WHEATON! I got a nannying job for 3 girls (11, 11, and 13-- HELLO chaos) and a 16 yr old boy who supposedly will never be around. Basically they're all involved in sports camps and I have to do light laundry and cook a simple lunch and I get paid $450 every week working 8-5 M-F. Not bad, not great. But since I will be driving a vehicle they provide and I will basically just be keeping myself busy,...I say it's better than HoneyRock and it's better than home. I'll probably get another job on the side just for weekends and what not.
That's about it. My daddy has been diagnosed with "follicular lymphoma" which is a form of Non-Hodgkins disease. Basically his lymph nodes swell and form lumps and so far they've all been benign but he's going through chemo right now to zap the rest of the crap going on. Plus his Parkinsons...well I just pray for that man more than anything else. Nothing like seeing your hero deteriorate. I've taken a real cynical view towards it all which is bad but it's getting me through and it makes me feel stronger then suppressing the angst and complete horror.
Well, time for bed. I miss you all and to all a good night
MUWAH! SWAAAAAK-- ;-)
I slapped Adam. Ooooh I slapped him HARD. Granted I wasn't "thinking clearly" and yes, HE DID provoke me and hit me back..but I did slap him and I feel HORRIBLE about it. I was sobbing and he was cussing at me to get out and then well...to say the least I begged him to forgive me but then we got into another fight. At this point I'm thinking, "We're over, I hate this, it's NOT worth it" and I tell him this and generally if I mention something absurd like that he'll say "Oh Leslie, hush, you don't mean that, you're looking for a reaction" (Totally true and TOTALLY irritating) but this time he looked at me and said "Baby, I love you but if that's what you want then fine". I love him. Just when I want to choke him I love him more and more. He's patient with my bullshit. To say the least, we're still together and BETTER THAN EVER! haha.
Softball=whatever. Good, fine, challenging, hard, whatever whatever,...blah blah. I quit catching. I HATE IT and I think it makes my legs look bulky. Ha, seriously though, my muscles get stronger during season and I get man legs. So, now I'm playing third but my bats suck big hairy ....well yeah. It's frustrating.
School is fine. Doing better than I expected. Next semester I'm loading up the classes so that I can hopefully graduate a year early (if not that, then a semester early). This summer...I'm in WHEATON! I got a nannying job for 3 girls (11, 11, and 13-- HELLO chaos) and a 16 yr old boy who supposedly will never be around. Basically they're all involved in sports camps and I have to do light laundry and cook a simple lunch and I get paid $450 every week working 8-5 M-F. Not bad, not great. But since I will be driving a vehicle they provide and I will basically just be keeping myself busy,...I say it's better than HoneyRock and it's better than home. I'll probably get another job on the side just for weekends and what not.
That's about it. My daddy has been diagnosed with "follicular lymphoma" which is a form of Non-Hodgkins disease. Basically his lymph nodes swell and form lumps and so far they've all been benign but he's going through chemo right now to zap the rest of the crap going on. Plus his Parkinsons...well I just pray for that man more than anything else. Nothing like seeing your hero deteriorate. I've taken a real cynical view towards it all which is bad but it's getting me through and it makes me feel stronger then suppressing the angst and complete horror.
Well, time for bed. I miss you all and to all a good night
MUWAH! SWAAAAAK-- ;-)