Confessions of an unrequited heart
I don't know how to tell you what I feel because words cannot express how I truly feel. I can say something but mean another and I'm not ready to take that chance. I'd rather not tell you than to be misunderstood and rejected for what I feel. Sometimes the feeling is too strong, but I don't LOVE you. And then other times I LIKE you but it's too much to fit under such a diminishing word. Nothing I say can truly explain what I feel. And they say that actions speak louder than words but I'm not used to showing off for the people I care about. If I had to show off to get your attention then I really wouldn't be true to myself, because the real me would never do that. As you can see I am really stuck here because I don't know what to do. I do know that I haven't really felt this before so it sort of scares me. I don't know what this means. I guess I want answers to questions that can't be answered but can you blame me? I have no idea what you are thinking and if you are thinking at all about me, or this. There really is no point in all this, then is there? This is just something I've been trying to get out there and I feel sort of lifted now that I have. I really wish I knew how you felt then maybe that would help me out. Many times I am tempted to go up to you, but there is always the feeling that you wont even know who I am. I'd rather hold this all in than suffer a humiliation to the person whose become my obsession. Yes I do take pride in who I am. So why should I belittle myself if you feel the same way? Why can't you do it? The humiliation should be both ways shouldn't it? But then again that's why I think that this, what ever we can call it, is only one sided. Otherwise you would have done something about it.