A will.
The hardest thing about dealing with my parents is how much they don't believe in me. Their lack of confidence in me puts a lack of confidence in myself. It's a sick cycle that's been going on my whole life really, it's just more damaging when you're becoming an adult (or trying to).
I tell myself things like "Oh I'll show them" "I'll prove them wrong" "I can do it and they'll be sorry for doubting me" etc.
But then, I second guess myself out of it, every.single.time.
NOT THIS TIME.
FUCK what they think. I know what I want, I can do it, I can get it and I'll do it all on my own. Fuck their help, because it never comes without a price.
If there's one thing I've learned in life, it's that you can only rely on yourself, and I can thank my parents for that lesson. No matter how much I've blamed other people for it, they were the real teachers.
I will apply to U of R, Brockport, and Nazareth. I will get into one for the International Studies program. I will get the government and loan money to pay for it. I will get good grades. I will graduate.
I tell myself things like "Oh I'll show them" "I'll prove them wrong" "I can do it and they'll be sorry for doubting me" etc.
But then, I second guess myself out of it, every.single.time.
NOT THIS TIME.
FUCK what they think. I know what I want, I can do it, I can get it and I'll do it all on my own. Fuck their help, because it never comes without a price.
If there's one thing I've learned in life, it's that you can only rely on yourself, and I can thank my parents for that lesson. No matter how much I've blamed other people for it, they were the real teachers.
I will apply to U of R, Brockport, and Nazareth. I will get into one for the International Studies program. I will get the government and loan money to pay for it. I will get good grades. I will graduate.