I Guess Homelessness Looks Good On Me
And/or the Universe is just laughing. it. up.
My new and easy and awesome boy-thing has been going really really well, in fact pretty much perfect through the whole month of July. But in August the Duder had to go away for a week (which is almost up now) and I've adjusted relatively easily back into independent mode -- too easily, maybe. It's starting to feel like the whole whirlwind never really even happened.
Which makes it sort of difficult to figure out how to handle the Very Attractive Brother of the totally rad chick I've been in (platonic?!) love with since the Duder introduced us. VAB, you see, in addition to being hot and as into the active lakeside lifestyle as his awesome sister, is a great big geek. And not just any geek. A Buffy geek. Who also works for Apple.
And he was already way into me, because of my sweet 12-inch powerbook and the fact that I was showing Avatar: The Last Airbender on it, when we figured out that we are both Joss lovers. He said "Grr," so I said, "Argh." It was reflex, flist! I couldn't help it! So then we talked a little bit about Buffy, and about Serenity, and then we watched Dr. Horrible because neither of us had seen it.
It was brilliant and full of Classic Joss Moves that we both laughed about, even the one that made us simultaneously say, "oh, no!" at first. But it was maybe not the smartest thing to watch with someone who likes you while you have a sort-of boyfriend already? Especially on a futon in the middle of the night.
Nothing happened except he threatened to "full-on Dr. Horrible everyone in [my] life," (I pointed out certain flaws in this plan) and I could hear the gods laughing. VAB knows my Duder -- in fact, it was only a day or two before the Duder left that he said to The Girl Whose Sidekick I Want To Be, "Don't you think your brother and Jill are going to get along so well?" -- but VAB does not know yet that my sort-of boyfriend is one of his friends. At least I don't think he does.
Posting about this feels a lot like bragging, oh everyone is in love with me, but seriously, like, what? Two at once? Let me make a confession: the Duder, if he becomes a real boyfriend, will be my first. I think he will, unless one of us has gone weird when he gets back, but I think the sex is too good for that.
Oh gods. Last time I had an almost-boyfriend, he disappeared for a week and when he came back we fucked once and then he started avoiding me. I really really really don't want to do that again.
I also don't want to lead anybody on or break any hearts but I don't really know how to guard against that. Especially since I totally want to hang out and geek out with VAB all the time, he's fun! And easy on the eyes.
Mostly I want to get on with the story already. Waiting and wondering about what's gonna happen is only gonna get me into more trouble.
Sorry this is becoming a boy drama journal, guys. Just think of it as research for my shippy fic.
My new and easy and awesome boy-thing has been going really really well, in fact pretty much perfect through the whole month of July. But in August the Duder had to go away for a week (which is almost up now) and I've adjusted relatively easily back into independent mode -- too easily, maybe. It's starting to feel like the whole whirlwind never really even happened.
Which makes it sort of difficult to figure out how to handle the Very Attractive Brother of the totally rad chick I've been in (platonic?!) love with since the Duder introduced us. VAB, you see, in addition to being hot and as into the active lakeside lifestyle as his awesome sister, is a great big geek. And not just any geek. A Buffy geek. Who also works for Apple.
And he was already way into me, because of my sweet 12-inch powerbook and the fact that I was showing Avatar: The Last Airbender on it, when we figured out that we are both Joss lovers. He said "Grr," so I said, "Argh." It was reflex, flist! I couldn't help it! So then we talked a little bit about Buffy, and about Serenity, and then we watched Dr. Horrible because neither of us had seen it.
It was brilliant and full of Classic Joss Moves that we both laughed about, even the one that made us simultaneously say, "oh, no!" at first. But it was maybe not the smartest thing to watch with someone who likes you while you have a sort-of boyfriend already? Especially on a futon in the middle of the night.
Nothing happened except he threatened to "full-on Dr. Horrible everyone in [my] life," (I pointed out certain flaws in this plan) and I could hear the gods laughing. VAB knows my Duder -- in fact, it was only a day or two before the Duder left that he said to The Girl Whose Sidekick I Want To Be, "Don't you think your brother and Jill are going to get along so well?" -- but VAB does not know yet that my sort-of boyfriend is one of his friends. At least I don't think he does.
Posting about this feels a lot like bragging, oh everyone is in love with me, but seriously, like, what? Two at once? Let me make a confession: the Duder, if he becomes a real boyfriend, will be my first. I think he will, unless one of us has gone weird when he gets back, but I think the sex is too good for that.
Oh gods. Last time I had an almost-boyfriend, he disappeared for a week and when he came back we fucked once and then he started avoiding me. I really really really don't want to do that again.
I also don't want to lead anybody on or break any hearts but I don't really know how to guard against that. Especially since I totally want to hang out and geek out with VAB all the time, he's fun! And easy on the eyes.
Mostly I want to get on with the story already. Waiting and wondering about what's gonna happen is only gonna get me into more trouble.
Sorry this is becoming a boy drama journal, guys. Just think of it as research for my shippy fic.