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i lied to my old creative writing professor tonight.
he asked me what i was doing next semester and after i told him i was graduating, i said i was spending the summer in europe, italy to be exact.
it's not exactly a lie, because i honestly want to spend my summer there and have done everything in my power to make it happen - it's currently happening ... blah blah blah.
but the lie just came out, so easily, because i knew it didn't matter to tell him that because if it happens, if it doesn't happen - he would never really know.
i just wanted to feel what it would feel like to say the words to someone - to have it be true - and to know that i'm doing it.
maybe it's because it's not an official thing yet - or that if it does happen, the first person i told was my creative writing professor.
and i thought that was kind of pathetic.
he asked me what i was doing next semester and after i told him i was graduating, i said i was spending the summer in europe, italy to be exact.
it's not exactly a lie, because i honestly want to spend my summer there and have done everything in my power to make it happen - it's currently happening ... blah blah blah.
but the lie just came out, so easily, because i knew it didn't matter to tell him that because if it happens, if it doesn't happen - he would never really know.
i just wanted to feel what it would feel like to say the words to someone - to have it be true - and to know that i'm doing it.
maybe it's because it's not an official thing yet - or that if it does happen, the first person i told was my creative writing professor.
and i thought that was kind of pathetic.