Jan 02, 2008 03:42
Happy new year!!!!!
I think all I really want to gain from this year is to love more and forgive more.
I know I need strength to get me through this year.
I number one thing that bothers me the most is war..
My brother is about to be put in the middle of one.
There are a few people that I still allow myself to love.
My family of course.
Clarice and Jeff ( for those of you that don't know they are one person, just as Clarice has a right hand she has Jeff)<3
Shelby
Charley
'Manda
And of course Jordon
I never really see any of you besides Jeff I see him everyday and once in a while I see Clarice which makes it more meaningful.
Everyday I see Bri is a challenge. I want to hate her, but I can't I can't hate someone I once loved. Instead I just get really pissed off and then I end up bashing myself for the rest of the night.
I'm going to try and be strong tomorrow and tell her what I really think.
Honestly, I will probably chicken out. I did tell her tonight that she made me mad.
She was speechless for once!! She knows I'm right !! I was right about something! I'm never right about anything I never when an argument! CLARICE YOU WOULDN'T BELIEVE IT!!
Anyway I got really wasted last night!
It was fun,I went on a rant forever while I smoked my cigar outside..
Jordon just laughed at me.
He dating this girl named Ashley and she's the sweetest girl ever.
I'm so happy for him.
I think I might get stood up on Friday....
Oh, well, no one really wants me to go on a date with this girl anyway.
PS: Clarice, if she does stand me up we need to go watch walk hard because Jeff and I both only have to work for an hour.
Also, you need to come to the theater and hear this message this old lady left on the answering machine.
I think everybody should like everybody.-modest mouse
I think this song was written about me.
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TALKING SHIT ABOUT A PRETTY SUNSET!
Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight
Looking kind of anxious in your cross armed stance
Like a bad tempered prom queen at a homecoming dance
And I claim I'm not excited with my life any more
So I blame this town, this job, these friends
The truth is its myself
And I'm trying to understand myself
And pinpoint where I am
By the time I get things figured out
Ive change the whole damn plan
Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight
Talking shit about a pretty sunset
Blanketing opinions that Ill probably regret soon
Ive changed my mind so much I cant even trust it
My mind changed me so much I cant even trust myself
I think this song was written about me.